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2008-05-10T13:22:00.002+08:00

Hey all!

Sorry for the delay in a new entry. Am a little caught up in my new life. Well... new life equates to change and so there will be a change! I’m switching over from blogger to LJ! So excited! hehe... After all, a lot of my friends are already on LJ and i think it’s about time i join them =D With all the drama happening within just this month (school and friends) i think a change is good. After al, life is all about changing. Always changing to be in a better place. School has been somewhat manageable. It’s but the first month of the school term.

On a less than entertaining note, youngsters these days seem to be having a lot of trouble keeping it real. The world is filled with gray areas and it is almost impossible to have a ‘1+1’ equation to questions like ‘why am i gay?’ . People who would betray their friends just to be with the popular clique. We all seem to like to stay in denial and never get out of it. Others who would make lots of assumption (and create gossip) so they can make themselves much more ‘interesting’ to people. I guess it’s an innate need to hide a certain flaw of themselves. After all, such people make themselves seem like a hero or a character much sneakier than that. They make me wanna go up and say “ Hi! I’m Johnathon and I’m confident and happy with myself! Are you?” =D But that would be just plain mean won’t it? - smirk- I guess they just wish or the world to revolve around them. Not sure when that will be, but I’m pretty sure it won’t be when I’m around. Guess some of us just station ourselves on the cross roads of ‘Denial Ave’ and ‘Pathetic St’.

ANYWAYS, I hope to see you all on LJ still. Please feel free to comment on my post if you are there. Much appreciated and also, thanks for reading my entries up till now =D

[K]azuki

P.S. currently on my playing on my itunes is the song ‘Point of view’ by Db Boulevard. ‘Can’t you see, life’s easy. If you consider things from another point of view’. Those people whom i have mentioned might wanna try remembering this few lines. After all, life isn’t all that we assume it to be. Or is it? =D Cya on LJ!

2008-04-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

With regards to my previous post:

i give my admiration to for the 2 girls and 5 boys who cornered me after lecture to confront me about my previous entry about a bunch of twats - althou being circled by them is hardly what i would say as a "ball-shrinking" moment, finally some action to an other wise blah monday -

So, it ended quote "forget all the past mistakes and be friends in the future". we'll try to work out our "differences" - me being a bisexual and them.. ermm being them? -

With that said "live and let bitch"

[K]azuki

2008-04-27T11:29:00.005+08:00

Last night, while out with Kalvin, we were pretty much bored and had decided to play a little road game he calls “count the gays”. So within the span of 2 hours, we walked from Raffles City and through City Link then into Marina Square. If you think we are done, afterwhich we went over to Suntec and then back into City Link and one last final lap within Raffles City. The total outcome of this? 1034 GAYS counted on the streets. All within a span of 2 hours. So we were bored and this was fun =D

However a much more ‘political’ topic came up in our conversation. If you are gay, you probably would have heard about Mediacorp being fined $15,000 for airing a show which “promotes a gay lifestyle”. It was a home decor show which was depicting a gay family with a baby. In my opinion, MDA was within their limits and rights to have fined Mediacorp. It wasn’t a first offense and it’s not like Mediacorp can’t afford the $15,000 fine. Gays in Singapore are taking this way too personally. It’s not like that rule was created yesterday and used to simply target the gays. The MDA didn't say ‘die you stupid fags’. Aren’t you guys procrastinating? When the rule existed, you kept quiet. Only when something happened then you start getting over dramatic and becoming so gung ho about gay activism. There are always both side to a situation. Stop over dramatising.

To heighten this melodramatic moment, One Seven have just been raided 2 nights ago and apparently the particulars of the patrons were taken down. Some said that the raid was in the pretense of “candy” while others had said that it was blatantly because of suspicion of activities within One Seven which was in breech of S377A. Whichever it was, the gays are already starting to make it very very dramatic. Don’t over react. Look at the whole situation logically and maturely instead of rushing into it head first and creating such a spectacle that will only cause more harm than good.

I understand that some people, after reading this post, will have strong feelings AGAINST me. Well, there is nothing i can do there i guess... You’ve got a pen and a paper. Why don’t you write a long long letter to someone and complain about me then? Since apparently you only know how to type behind a screen to voice how displeased you are.

[K]azuki

2008-04-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

Etiquette has more or less died among youngsters these days. When did double standard and self-centeredness become a core value for people to live by?

Today was the first time I lost my temper to 2 of my classmates. Girls might I add. For all those who has known me for awhile, you’ll know that I rarely lose me temper on girls. But amazingly, this 2 girls managed to push EVERY BUTTON to piss me off. To the first girl, if I have given u ample respect and given u your space, isn’t it only right that I get some back? Smacking people cause you feel like it? Oh and I can’t smack back cause I’m a guy… Honestly.

Second girl. Please get hitched. Please do. And try having your heart broken and the only thing left is a memento which people like u have no respect for. GROW UP. You have no respect for the things that belong to other people and being dumb and acting cute really doesn’t change that fact. And I get real. When someone want to apologize, it’s just 3 words ‘I am sorry’ done sincerely. There isn’t some bag pulling, shoulder tapping nor hysterical laughter involved. If you cant event manage a simple clear apology then its really sad. Cause the apologies u made were down right insincere and insulting to someone who is pissed.

Oh AND the same girl who called another male classmate a pervert cause he saw what one of the other girl had typed in an sms. Now tagged team with gal number one to pester him into divulging the name of the classmate who smokes cause they are just CURIOUS~ What the hell kind of double standard is this? So people cannot invade the privacy of you and the people around you. But you have every right to invade others? GROW THE HELL UP. HOW OLD ARE YOU! Forcing someone else to betray a friend cause u are just curious?! Does that even make sense to you, now that I am spelling it out?! In case u cant figure out the damage u are doing. The terms is sowing discord. SIMPLE AS SUCH. Life ain’t a bed of roses anymore eh.

If u are reading this, I don’t care if I will ever be friends with you right now. Cause your lack of interest in someone else’s life disgust me. When u want to apologize. Please make it sincere. NOT HYSTERICAL. And to end if off, a quote from Margaret Cho. “If you don’t like me… I’m going to make you hate me!”

[K]azuki

mood: pissed

2008-04-13T22:35:00.003+08:00

Its interesting when popular gay cruising sites are shut down or in this case “under renovation” . That’s right buddies!!! The toilet of city-link has been shut down for renovation! That would kind of explain why my Kalvin got cruised while waiting for me outside Body Shop.

“Definitely, Maybe”

A fairly entertaining chic flick. Plot of it is rather simple. An overly curious daughter prying into the past relationships of her “to-be-divorced” father. Interestingly enough, the show is told much like a narration of the stories. Jokes are simple enough to be understood by most. However, one has to wonder if the director has something against Bill Clinton due to the often mentioned scandal of his rumps.

But overall, I give it 3.5 out of 5 stars. Definitely worth your time and when u are feeling down and unloved, this might be a good choice to pop into your DVD player. Do not expect much tears nor heart wrenching moments. Simple touching relationship between father and daughter with heart-warming scenes. Do catch it while it’s still airing.

[K]azuki

PS. Why in hell is the leap years still showing?!

2008-04-12T20:36:00.002+08:00

Hmmm… I’ve never really understood the point of assumptions. Being a bi in this community, its amusing how much others can assume and stereotype me to be. When I come out to the straights, they say “ good! You date girls!” But when it comes to conversing about me dating guys, They shy away from me as if I was the black plague. Excuse me? I believed that when I said bi, I told you that I date guys too?

The queers themselves aren’t much of a saint either! To them, if I have not fucked a gal, that would equate to be being gay. HELLO~ how old am I again? Anyways, I believed I was always more of the relationship kinda guy and never the ‘be kind to your Friday mistake on Saturday morning’ person. And even more interestingly, just cause I’m young and enjoy my share of bitching and shaming others, doesn’t equate to me being a bottom… GET REAL old geezers. Why not u guys bend over and let me prove to u that I’m top then? Tsk~ I mean come on society. People stereotype because they do not understand something. But in doing so, don’t you think you are being very unfair to the people who are being judged by you?

I’m not denying that we all judge people. We judge those who wears neon tapered pants and walks past us. We judge the hot bods on the beach or the cuties in the gym. Be they as ‘hot fucks’ or ‘fashion road-kill’, we all judge. But do not call yourself a friend when you judge someone behind their back and put on a hypocritical front to show what a ‘supportive person’ you are. Don’t stand at the sidelines and play a cynic. If you do not understand someone or someone else’s lifestyle choice, why not just get to know them for your own? Isn’t that a better alternative as compared to simply judging them at the back of your mind?

Currently starting my freshie year in SP. Got to know my class… all really nice people. Most of which I have come clean to. Accordingly, they are all fine with my orientation and the things which I do but at the back of my mind, there is still a little worry that screams caution. I don’t know if this is temporal or if they really do accept me for who I am. Only time will tell.

Decided not to get into a relationship for awhile. Not sure if I can handle another relationship right now. As much as things goes, MR J is pretty much a decent chap. However, I just don’t think I feel romantic and if I agree to go out on a date, it would pretty much seem like I am leading him on.

Just found out bout another few guys who have been tested positive and are really young. It’s a lil upsetting to know that these teenagers are becoming sexually active at a younger age without protection. I cannot pity those who become positive through their lifestyle choice. If you choose to be promiscuous and not use protection, you KNOW why you are infected. Whether with a fuck buddy or with a partner, getting a condom isn’t that difficult. I just saw that 7-11 is selling a big box at 16 bucks.

I’m willing to be a friend and spend time and chat over coffee or such. But I tune out to self pity. What’s the point of telling me ‘woe is me’? I do not believe that we should be saying “ there there…come into my arms…its all going to be ok…” GET REAL. It ain’t gonna be ok! Help them stand up on their own 2 feet! Be a pillar of support… not a freaking dummy for them to leech on cause it doesn’t help them one bit.

Making a plea to all who is reading my post. Use protection. Be safe.

[K]azuki

2008-03-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

Am actually typing this entry out on the words format. Reason behind this particularly peculiar behavior will be explained further. Currently I’m in Singapore Polytechnic’s T4 block waiting so anxiously to get my laptop self certified. As you all may have already know, I am using a macbook. Which might I add is so fucking cool! Sitting in the computer lab among Acer’s 4920 models feeling lost and just a tad bit irritated. The lab attendent looks around and spots ONLY the acer and not my macbook! Apparently I was redirected into this room because the leopard OS doesn’t work as it should when it comes to downloading the software that the school provides. The man said: “ give me a second and I’ll get my stuff to attend to you”. “YOU” meaning all of 5 of us sitting in this lab!

And now after I just raised my hands to said “ excuse me, But I have not been given ANY instructions as to what I should be doing with the software given!”

He had a somewhat shocked expression as if I wasn’t sitting here for the past 20 min staring into blank space. “ ooh~ You are using a macbook right? (duh) There should be a different set of instructions to downloading the software in the booklet.”

I replied bluntly: “I HAVE read through the booklet and there is no instructions for mac….”

He NOW tells me…to sit tight and he will check for me.

Now redirected to yet another separate sitting area but finally with other mac…but I’m still sitting here without any instructions as to what I should do.

Several hours later, am finally done with the configuration of my com! (and I do mean several!!!) Went home to get bathed and changed before I headed back to school again. Now with the SP Primers at MOBERLY block having their BBQ. Not eating much though. As rare as this is, I have nothing but praise for this ‘club’. It doesn’t make me feel like I’m forced into this, but rather, a part of this little family of theirs! (their own words) It feels somewhat homely in this dimly lit atmosphere as laughter can be heard exploding from various areas of this courtyard. It really is an interesting experience as the seniors themselves seem to be having a good time. Much different from the sec school cheer-leader personalities. It really is a fun day. Its carefree and not much on forced into doing things which people find particularly embarrassing.

In the transition from secondary school to poly, this ‘club’ provides a more than sufficient bridge to make u feel right at home and less of a deer caught in the head lamps of a truck. Family isn’t just the one’s you are born into. It is also the one you make with your own hands. Those are to cherish for life…

Over all, this is a good day. This evening more than makes up for the less than delightful start of the day. I might just consider to join them as a CCA.

OHHH….and I’m not outed yet…still considering if I should~ hehe

[K]azuki

PS. This post is typed over a span of 9 hours!

2008-03-23T17:28:00.002+08:00

I've decided that from now on, my blog shall be weekly based. Which means in one week i'll try to gather as much information and bits of lil bitchy things to blog about. I find it nicer to blog (and i'm sure, to read) about issues that come up in our lives as compared to the "omg today i went shopping with so and so! sooo soo soooo fun lah!!!!".

Well currently I'm starting anew with a fresh new page of my life. Hello. My name is Johnathon and i'm 17 this year. I'm doing a diploma in Optometry in Singapore Poly. My new school term is starting and i really should be checking if i'm read for it rather than blogging. haha. Recently watched finish all 6 seasons of "Sex And The City". Damn i feel accomplished! Oh and i'm single but not very available. But still! Don't hesitate to drop me a msg using which ever friend-making site. =D

Hmmm... Currently, what broods on my mind is the fact that teens these days seem to have a more warped mind then ever. (The following example excludes me =D )

The last time i 'pop-ed' into IRC was bout...3 weeks ago? Around there. But it seems like, within a matter of 2 week, pods have sprung up in houses of teenagers, attached themselves to teenage gays forehead and used electric pulses to change their mindset. Apparently the new trend of making a friend has a lot to do with sexual preference. The conversation i had with this boy went something like,

Him: " You seek friends arhx?"

me: "yeap"

him: "ohhh....i'm top. You leh?"

me: "does it matter??"

him: " cuz if u top then i oso top...no point being friends mah."

me: "so what u're saying is that tops can only make friends with bottoms and vice versa?"

him: "like that then make more sense mah"

I'm sorry? But did i miss a news flash that states that only tops can make friends with bottoms? 'Cause seriously, i didn't think that sexual preference made a difference when it comes to knowing someone new. If the situation was a straight guy refusing to make friends with me because of my orientation, that i can TRY to understand. But this is complete and utter bullshit. They aren't looking for friendship as compared to a fuck buddy. Which brings out another point. Promiscuity has spread so deep into the teenagers in the gay circle that apparently friends can double as a fuck buddy.

Promiscuity : The new romance for the 21st century... or for all who simply have no time for it? Not trying to be a priest and preach how bad promiscuity and random sex is. I have enjoyed my fair share of male company. But don't hide your intentions of making friends who can also multi purpose as a fuck buddy cuz it's not sincere. It's convenience. Promiscuity has become so common I'd rather say it was a culture than a habit. However, which promiscuity is more acceptable... Emotional or Physical? That question, we all have to answer at our own pace.

For me, I find them both equally unacceptable when it comes to a r/s. Maybe my views will change in time. But thats what they are now and with this i end my post! Now i shall go back to my anime and rather unhappening life =D

[K]azuki

2008-03-15T11:41:00.002+08:00

My first post on my new macbook. Wanted to blog bout it, but dun seem to be in the mood. Have some problems and this would probably be one of the only places where i can say what i want to.

I'm currently dating someone new and things aren't exactly going smoothly. Just had our third fight last night. Here's my question, when in a relationship is it alright to say ' i'm just being me' ? Does that mean that if two individual personalities dun hit it off, there is absolutely no chance of a relationship? If a relationship has 2 "Me"s in it, will there ever be space to make it a "We"? While people around me can simply say 'look around for more options' and 'things probably wont work out for u guys. Just break.' What are my options?

Robert Frost once wrote:

'Ah, when to the heart of man

Was it ever less than a treason

To go with the drift of things,

To yield with a grace to reason,

And bow and accept the end

Of a love or a season?'

This is only part of his poem 'Reluctance'. But by just this bit, what i get from it, it seems to say 'follow your heart'.

Perhaps one reason why i can't just end this, is simply the word 'reluctance'. Bout the best thing that happened to me thus far but i have no solutions to this problem. I dunno how i can move forward nor backwards. My ego makes it hard for me to let things go and simply smile it off and move forward. My reluctance prevents me from taking a step back from what i already have. When is it right for me to compromise my ideas? Similarly, stand up for them?

And while everyone has started off their Saturday routines, i'm sitting here with more questions than i have answers to. I wish i could just simply voice this out to my date, but im afraid to get into another fight. In which case, the old saying of ' settling ur problems together' doesn't quite go together does it? I wish things would simply just be simple and where i can share problems and talk things out with. Maybe it's me. I currently have no clue. I dunno if i should move forward or back.

[K]azuki

2008-03-03T00:50:00.002+08:00

im single again...but this time...im not really that sad after all...something came about from it..

this relationship which just ended, was with my ideal and not with reality. The ideal boyfriend pop-ed into my life and swept me away...or so i thought. It was everything i imagined and it was perfect. and that was where the problem lies... it was everything i imagined.

He swept me off my feet like i imagined him to. He asked me out and toke romantic strides with me to keep me company. He even kissed like i thought he would. There was nothing fresh in it. Nothing for me to anticipate. Nothing for me to want nor feel bashful about. Everything felt like i have lived through it already and it felt much more like a dear old friend rather than a lover. I ended it on feburary 29th...a day that comes once every four years...by the time i go through this day again. I hope i will have sincerely found someone who is imperfect.

Im going to stop looking for perfection. If life throws me a curve ball...i see no point in avoiding anymore...i will move on with what i've got. Im not going to be afraid of commiting. Maybe people see it as dumb and putting myself on the chopping board but i see no point of me being coi anymore. The perfect ideal date no longer exist to me. I will take what i've got...memories and all...and move on...when the world gets dark and cold...this are what i will wrap myself in and push on...

tonight...i spent the most imperfect evening with the most imperfect gentleman... but to me..it was perfect... enough company...enough support and enough time for me to think things through. (this is the best reason for stayin in town) The walk back home from the grand cathay...i toke alone...by choice...but i didnt really feel alone... try this next time...dun allow ur date to send u home...go home by urself...and think bout what happened on that date...cuz all i could remember was the feeling of being touched and a broad boyish smile. And that was more than enough. After all...imperfection in an imperfect world...is perfection...what irony. haha... but im moving on...with someone willing to stand by me and help me along... someone i can truly see myself grow old with. Quoting from 'P.S. I Love You' : It is a privilige to grow old with someone u love...
I'll let things flow for now... I dun wanna rush into what a r/s should be...but rather can be...

To K. : Thanks for everythIng... slap me if u wish... scoLd me if u have tO...u leaVe me at a lost of words...i've never mEt someone like U...nor imagined with u in my life...thank you...

[K]azuki

2008-02-18T16:56:00.005+08:00

Reflection post...haha
Here's a disclaimer. Most of what im going to talk bout today is going to be stolen from other places!

Last christmas, I received a book titled "Whatever you think. Think the opposite." by Paul Arden. It's really an interesting read with ideas that contrast the safe choices we always made. It was the perfect gift and i thank the person who gave it to me...but i dun think he will be able to receive this thank you...oh wells...

It brought about certain things which i wanna discuss...
first being an article about being unreasonable in the book....George Bernard Shaw once said 'The reasonable man adapts himself to the world. The unreasonable man adapts the world to himself. All progress depends upon the unreasonable man'. Admit it...it actually does make sense...some things are beyond logic and reason...so why so we try so hard to make everything reasonable...dun try to perfect things before it starts...work it out along the way...it works better that way...

second is a quotation from Oscar Wilde, an Irish playwright, novelist, poet. A little background infomation bout Oscar Wilde. Borned in the year 1854 and died in the year 1900 at the mere age of 46. He is then seen by his community as homosexual. Later tried to get rid of his homosexual tendancies by marrying Constance Lloyd in 1884. And yes....he was out of the closet back in those days already. If u are interested in anymore infomation about him...do search online or try the book 'The Secret Life Of Oscar Wilde'.
He once said 'Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone eles's opinions, their lives a mimicry. Their passions a quotation.' I think it is pretty much self explanatory...what say you?

Third is stealing. No...not items...but ideas....here's what the book says...steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour films, music, books, paintings, poems, photographs, conversations, dreams, trees, architecture, street designs, clouds, lights and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic.
Authenticity is invaluable.
Originality is non-existent. Don't bother concealing your thievery---celebrate it if you feel like it!
Remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: 'It's not where you take things from---it's where you take them to.'

so yes...i am stealing ideas from places and people who live in the past...but the response is mine...so what u feel after u read this post of mine is up to you....have ur own perspective...and live the way u want to.

[K]azuki

P.S. this is a picture i toke off from http://www.fridae.com/newsfeatures/article.php?articleid=2168&viewarticle=1 . Its really good that certain places are already making such efforts for equality instead of prejudice...i await the day singapore can be too...

2008-02-18T01:26:00.002+08:00

yawns!!! its 1:30 in the morning and i decided i should blog just to get certain things off my chest...
In my last post i have said somethings that seemed insensitive...if anyone is offended by it, I apologise. But i have no intention of taking back what i have said for they were not said in the heat of the moment. I wanna use this post to acknowledge the people who have been standing by me when i was havin this emotional meltdown.
Javier~chatting with you always worked like a charm. Somehow its just ok to let down my guard to chat with u. But dun regret what you said. Cuz im going to remember it! *hint hint*
Daniel~banana boy!! hehe...can never ask for a better ex! sorry i keep poking fun of u...defense mechanism...or is it? muhaha~
Jeremy~ ok...your approach to help me is a wee bit annoying and sometimes downright irritating...but i appreciate ur effort....really do...
Gordon~thanks for bothering to listen to me at night and whine~ ur advice have always been much appreciated...you know that...haha...thanks..

to recap on what's been happening...just attended sham's birthday celebration held at the sentosa huts. It had the making of a great party...just that the guest list...well lets just say are the kind u wont invite to a dinner party...Emmy and Ian decided to record an episode of QueerCast there as it was easy to get interviewees. Hot topic of the night was people's perspective on love, Valentine's day and sex. I WAS INTERVIEWED!! hehe..must catch it and support ok? shall not expose too much of the contents but u should really listen to it...its going to be so funny!
Earlier, I went to catch Juno with my friend. I thought it was a fantastic show with their witty one liners...sorta remind me of golden girls. Its bout this teenage girl named Juno who had sex with a virgin boy and becomes pregnant. Then follows the confusion of being a teenager along with boundaries that teenagers dun understand. The first movie in a long long time to make me tear up. Its really a very good show for teens who are still on the confusion of what love is. You can feel the progression of the characters and relate to it. It's not bout how beautiful ur actors and actress look but rather how people can relate to them. Of cuz i love it oso because of the witty lines that the actors delievered...god they make me laugh and laugh so hard. I rate it 4.5 out of 5 stars!!! must watch!!!

im really greatful for those people who stuck by me...i know im not the nicest person to stick by when im havin my mood swings and melt down...thanks for being patient with me...i really am very very greatful...thanks..

[K]azuki

2008-02-13T11:35:00.002+08:00

"Ahhhh...having a mental breakdown soon...maybe 2008 really isnt so good a year for everyone." was the original starting for my blog post. Trapped in my position, many of you would have already given up helping friend after friend with their problem. Not being recognised but rather being called a 'kpo'.

Hmmm...whoever said that doing a good deed is always good. Currently 'shooting the middle-man' seems more appropriate. Having my chipmunk away from me, I'm just feeling so alone. Then again, arent we always? So to address certain issues, to the guy who feels so alone and that his friends are abandoning him. MATURE UP! No one has freaking gone anywhere. So what if we are lonely? You have people checking up on you and constantly helping u up. What have i got? A bf who is away? Friends who are so caught up in their lives that it is simply suffocating to me? You have emotional baggage. So do we. It makes us human. So take a step back and look around. Life can only be a swirling eddy of despair if you make it. Lonely...arent we all? We get by. No matter how many r/s we are in or friends we have, we are still alone. When we dream, bath, eat, walk down a dark road, we are alone. So why are we complaing and whining only now? Cuz Saint Valentine's Day is coming up? IT IS BUT ONE DAY! People who attempt suicide and didnt die should simply jus be locked away in a mental institute. How many people in the ICU want just a few more days jus to tie up their lives before they die. They are fighting to live. So why is it so easy to take ur own life? Just cuz things got a lil difficult. To summarise some points for that friend:

Mature~ no one has left ur side. But some things people cant help u with. Lead ur own life. Dun keep expectin others to be there for u cuz we all have our lives to lead. We'll definitely be a friend as best we can.
Optimistic~ sometimes i dunno y u act the way u are...When everyone is standin by u...y must u still act like everything is the end. IT'S NOT! Please be optimistic from the bottom of ur heart and dun jus fake a smile...help us help u...

To my friend in the other social circle...wisen up and stop acting like a bloody spoilt child and shooting everyone in plain sight when u get angry. You have a little popularity thing going on but that doesnt exactly mean u use it to ur upmost advantage right? Every little thing u are pissed at, u type it on ur msn nick and flash it to the whole world...waitin 4 ur 'fans' to help u get ur revenge. Stop fucking being a queen! When u have more qualifications apart from just being able to think like a kid then be a queen! U are approachin 20...live like ur age eh...gettin into bitch fights every now and then...promiscuity is common! Especially among teenagers these days! So y act so shocked? They are who they want to be...u have no right to judge them. Actually to add to my point...to all stupid teenagers who enjoy clubbing oh so much and gained just that little popularity and actin all so Fabulous....grow up. Clubbing is a big part of the gay community but it isnt the only thing eh lil queeny...was really nice to u that night when i was tryin to help. Fucking bitch me one more time, i will show u what real queen is eh...u dun have enough qualification to be one yet... tsk!

hmmmm...was hoping bloggin will help me release some baggage...but dun think it did that much...meeting my bf later...jus wanna stay in his arms...now for me...if i want to be there for more friends...i have to be there for myself first...or im jus going to have a melt down soon...

happy 'ren ri' everyone...stay happy and be optimistic...

[K]azuki out

2008-01-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

Well this post is one of reflection and maturing in my own rights...
Its easy for all of us to sit on the sidelines and play the cynic and judge others with our own eyes. We learn from young the most cliche and used saying 'never judge a book by its cover'. But is it just an idealistic future that we wish for or want?

I should understand. The dirty looks people shoot me just because i'm different from them. Does me not being straight justify who i must be in the future? What's playing behind me on my television now is 'Ghost Whisperer'. I love the show, but mainly its because of Jennifer Love Hewitt. A friend of mine says that most people are watching that show because of her boobs. But today's episode actually ties in with the point im trying to put across. Melinda Gordon ,a woman with the ability to communicate with the dead ,found a duty to help the dead cross over by fulfilling their last wishes. While doing so, she faces the eyes of others and being labelled a freak from young. Only those who have had her help see her from a different light. What is it exactly that we wanna teach the young? That when we are different we have to over compensate just so that the general public can see us as normal?

Maybe to all those who feel like im just ranting on about the having u 'endorse' the lifestyle of homosexuals should start opening your mind. Its far beyond having your acceptance. Its GIVING BACK the rights that have been taken away. And its not just about people who are homosexual or bisexual but also people who are simply different from what we perceive as normal. Homosexuals alike. You may already be the ones looked down upon in the society. With that being said, you should have the maturity to look at others with respect who are different from you. Maybe im sounding a little self-righteous but i have the opportunity to know some people who are different and it's really been my greatest pleasure to know them. But it breaks my heart to have to see them work doubly hard to gain back respect from u stupid people who judge them. By doing so much making up, they end up losing sight of themselves. 'Live and let live'. Have u never heard of it?

I thanks the people in my life who allow me to see things from a different perspective. My Muslim drama teacher who accepted me for who i am told me :' if you are happy being who you are, no matter what religion others are in, no one else has the right to judge you'

HIV is also the same thing. We cannot cast aside people we know who are positive. How does that reflect on you people who back off cuz you are scared? They are people with feelings with emotions too. As much as i dun understand what they are going through, I will make it a point that i can be there for those i know. NOT because i feel sympathy but because i wanna show true concern as a friend. I admit that i am scared of the unknown but one thing's for sure. If i sit here and whine about how unfair the world is then im no different from those talk shows. I'm going to row up my sleeves and help out as much as i can and when i get scared and lose confidence in myself , i know i have friends i can count on. People with HIV don't deserve it. No one deserves it(no matter what Ronald Regan says) Be understanding to them and treat them like a friend. I believe that what they want most is simply a friend there to be their emotional outlet and not sympathy.

Conversation between Rose and Blanche when Rose thought she has AIDS from 'The Golden Girls':
Rose: 'I just saying that i am a good person!'
Rose: 'Hell, im a goody two shoes!'
Blanche: 'AIDS is not a bad person's disease Rose!'
Blanche: 'It is not god punishing people for their sins!'
Rose: 'Oh you're right Blanche...'
Blanche: 'Damn straight im right!' quoted from Golden Girls's episode titled 72 hours.

We mature in our own rights and our own time. So why force others to conform to your ideals of what normal should be? Live like how u want others to treat you. If anyone dares to stand before me and criticise any one of my friends because they are different, i will definitely stand up for any of them. If you are unhappy with someone or something. Take it out with a punching bag! Dun you even think bout stomping on someones self worth to the ground cuz i will return the favour. Its not a threat. Its a promise! To those hovering in uncertainty, provide your shoulder to those you cast aside. Give them a chance instead of condemning them for something which isn't their fault. Which ever faith you belong to, pray and love those who are different because it will make a different to someones life. Be truthful and sincere. Not patronising. Smile from the bottom of your heart.

[K]azuki out...

2008-01-03T15:42:00.000+08:00

hey all!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF U!

hope u guys really enjoyed urself during the new year celebration...i noe i did!!

hee...3 events so far since i last blogged...muhahaha...me not addin pics in this time...jus links to the albums which can be found on my facebook account...hope u dun mind =D

#1 my christmas gatherin!!! muhahaha....was the first gatherin i ever hosted by myself...lets see...well got a lil help lah..my mum's bf helped me with the spaghetti...bet u guys who were there loved it! haha chunky ham!!! then my mum went to help me get turkey! hee...yum...then we cooked cream of watercress...tasted not back actually! haha....then i oso got fried calamari from fish and co...totally love it! haha....oh and i made ice cream!!! yummy! got nice gifts oso! haha...but shall not say it out bah...haha...but i really love them! every single one of them!!
link: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14656&id=728114116

#2 im now attached! haha...to my chipmunk emmy! heee....i think he is so cute and awesome...and so gentlemanly...hee!! we went to the museum to see the greek exhibition...i so totally love greek history and art...lol i mean...chiseled butts...defined abs...small dicks...haha...comin to think of it...its like all the guys in ancient greece are all hot but with small 'guns'...haha...but its ok...tells us we cant have everything...helps those ppl with big guns but below average looks to feel better bout themselves...haha...it was a fun thing to do on a date...but sheesh...all the dim lightings were makin both of a sleepy...hee...then we went around to see the different features of the museum...like the chandeliers that swing every few minutes! so cool lah! was a fun way to spend a dae away...hee ps. the photos are in the same album as the link above! hee

#3 yea! cut my hair again...quite like it! muhaha...think it makes me look young...haha...or rather my age...hee....jus cut it this morning...then head over to meet emmy 4 lunch....haha...then headed home...now a lil sleepy...but im goin to watch margaret cho to entertain myself...haha....she is so humourous...like OMG! haha then tonight meetin a friend to chat chat....well tune in soon ok! promise to blog real real quick! hugs
link: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=15073&id=728114116

[K]azuki out!

2007-12-16T17:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm...time to go back to bloggin...haha...jus realised that its been around half a month since i've been bloggin...haha....lets see where to recap from shall we?

oh right!!! December 2nd i attended my teacher's weddin...haha...that was a nice experience as it was the first time i actually attended a weddin without my parents...so to prevent any awkwardness i invited Dan Dan along to be my date....haha he was rather sportin and was still nice of him to bother to go get a gift for my teachers even though he didnt noe them...haha

anyways jus a quick question...how many of u are aware of the fact that only virginal brides wear a white weddin gown? (fakin and lyin to be a virgin everytime u do it doesnt count!)

here's some pictures from the event^^

tats the gift i bought 4 the love birds...but only they'll noe wat it is!

unique isnt it?green lightin... thats the nice indoor tentage hehe...the now pronounced newly wed...

hmmm then the next big thing that happened to me...hmmm...im guessin was my shoppin spree? haha....recently jus bought a DnG ring...its so nice...on one side it says 'DnG' and on the other 'SEX'...when i was gettin the ring it was a rather hilarious situation...the ring i bought had 2 kinds...either 'SEX' or 'LOVE'...well being the nice respectable boi i am *ahem*...i decided to go for 'LOVE' but the display ring didnt fit my fingers...so she said she would go and check if there was a larger..

she came back and said:"im sorry sir...but only haf sex for ur size" and then her face flushed...im guessin that she noticed that her sentence didnt come out just the way she wished to come out...muhahaha!

and then i bought a nice leather watch frm diesel...utterly love it as well...hehe...i oso bought a new shirt and a nice new leather wallet and not to 4get a pair of tiger shoes! muhahaha....hint hint...i love leather...*smirk*

haha...another event i went 4 recently was this concert 4 a very good cause....it truly was...was really enjoyable...haha...those who wan details bout it...i can only say in msn...haha...pardon the anonymity...then yesterdae...i attended this purple themed part...haha...was really fun....but apparently i was a lil nervous...haha...so i didnt eat nor anythin...jus stood around...but some really nice ppl came and chat me up...haha not to mention my guardians...thanks gordon and sham!!!...haha...met a lovely couple oso...ian and mark if im not wrong...such nice ppl...haha...if i haf a chance to chat up with them again...it would be nice....well anyways...check out wat i wore to the party...not very purple...but hey...it was dimly lit...

[K]azuki out!

2007-11-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

Yea! i've finally updated my blog...haha...."O" is over...and my com has been reformatted!

hehe....ur regular old actin cute johnathon is back! muhahaha prepare urself!

hehe...jus uploaded pictures on friendster and facebook...jus created that account so im still a newbie and tryin to figure out how things work...but if u wanna view my profile...u can jus search "johnathon kwok"...friendster is still the same^^

well nothin much has changed bout me...jus that my hair is a lil longer and much less prudish...duh...haha...its the holidays!...and one of my fave shows to slack at home and watch...is still the "Ellen DeGeneres Show" and the "Tyra Banks Show"...god i love those 2 women! hehe...i tink Ellen is jus simply amazing...haha...she really is very funny...i wont ever miss it cuz its like so damn entertaining...the guest...the jokes...and hey...like her...i LOVE~ TO DANCE!
i'll usually end up dancin along with her...dancing is actually a very good workout as well...haha

Tyra on the other hand breaks past the stereotypes of "dumb models"...she's funny...she's daring and i tink that the show kinda talks about things that is relatively close to us...dun get me wrong...its good to noe wat happen in the iraq war or conflicts happenin either among or in other countries...but honestly...wat can we do?...we jus noe...we talk bout it over a decaf...then we dish some dirt about a celeb or our friends...i tink that with topics closer to us...it affects us more...lil tips to make our lives easier...its not really a bad thing...plus the occasional crazy antics of her...haha...no matter wat ppl say...i tink she is GORGEOUS...u hear me! haha...she will always be a super model...hot hot hot!!!

hehe...well a lil sleepy wor...i tink im gonna stop bloggin now...hehe...hopefully u'll continue to read it my entries...thanks in advanced ^^

[K]azuki

2007-09-05T16:33:00.000+08:00

whoo...been tryin to study lit todae...haha...notes by my side...pity pity...oh wells...

met up with jimmy on mondae to go watch ratatouille...haha...wat to do...simply love that rat...so watch again lo...heehee...was a rather nice time out with jimmy...we sat round the fountain in the grand cathay jus tokin...toke some pics...but didnt upload it ba...haha....then had dinner...mmmm....heehee...movie was a sweet thing....first time we kissed...oh wells...was sweet....then again all kisses are fantastic aint it? ^^ wanted to send him back that night...but he didnt wan me to cuz it was late...and that was it ba^^

yesterdae met up with Satori...haha....whole dae was on him cuz i really had no money...oh wells...sorry!...give u a treat back soon...we met ard 315 after he met his dear...then walked frm bugis to grand cathay...sorry la i really love the grand cathay so if ppl see me there...dun be shocked eh... :D ...watched hair spray...but we were early...so basically...we jus sat at ben and jerry's and started chattin...haha...it was a fun and mentally stimulating thing cuz i've not tok to someone like that 4 so long...and bitchin rendall was always a fun thing...tsk...lil attention seeker...hmph!
but i digress...haha...we went into the theatre...and sorry to the ppl ard me and Satori...but i love the songs...so i jus started singing...HAHA....oh wells cant blame me...after which we walked around to orchard...then back to bugis...then finally settled on a hainanese food place...food was grt^^ yep yep...
got home and had to face the childish antics of rendall...so tempted to put the conversation log up here....trust me...the temptation is so godn damn great....but i guess i'll jus hold back...tsk...lil attention seeking imp...run along to neverland....u peter pan knockoff...tryin to make urself seem oh so innocent with the woebegone look upon ur face...simply hilarious...though if anyone wans the conver log...tell me...i'll send u....bet u its a good laugh^^ he doesnt seem to get it that he alr has such a bad reputation...he should be thankful friends like us wanna stick by him and hear him constantly whining bout guys! and only guys....sicko...still can go to Satori...and say....now i haf no reason to tok to u Alvin or johnathon....haha...childish....
oh wells...im glad i made friends with Alvin and Satori...through it i see wat an exaggeratin lil bitch he is....well thanks 4 be-ing my friends....and of cuz....not 4gettin jimmy... ^^

[K]azuki out!

2007-09-01T13:37:00.000+08:00

WHOO!!

haha...now is sept hols...so fun...but must study!!! practical exam...next week...on the same dae as my bro bookin in...oh wells...guess i cant send him in...

well good thing is my maths teacher won hottest teacher in my skool...haha....upload her pic soon...

well another...wonderful thing is that i met a very very sweet person....cute oso^^ cant wait to meet that person again....love ya!!! hugs~ NYP BOI!!!!

[K]azuki

2007-08-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

WOO!!!

haha...todae went to grand cathay to watch "licensed to wed" with zi hao...haha....was really funny...but i digress...i tink that im infactuated...here's the story...haha

was a lil early after buyin tic...cuz movie was at 450...so we went to ben's and jerry cafe to slack...but then...got nice music!!! haha....but a lil shy to sit inside...so bought my smoothie and went out to sit with zi hao...allow me to digress...the mango and more smoothie is grt...haha....but can only identify apple juice...banana and mango! will identify it all out one dae...u wait....grrrrrr!

the singers were great...haha...mr GREEN SHIRT and Miss Jane(pardon me if i get ur name wrong^^) but music was grt...haha...while they break...was listenin to corrinne may with zi hao...haha...dun be mistaken...zi hao is my friend...and we jus like corrinne may^^

but call me infactuated....but my eyes were set on something else...haha....mr GREEN SHIRT!!!
should be the 4th time im meetin him...last time is jus pass by each other...this time i got eye contact!! hee...mr GREEN SHIRT^^ wonder if got chance to noe him...hee...die...attracted le...haha...green green green^^ only colour i can tink of^^ maybe its jus me...but i tot i haf eye contact!!!...haha....wana noe him la... well...mr green shirt...im the boy in the white and green jacket...with my FRIEND! haha....appeared there at around 3:30pm ...if u see this....reply?...haha

and btw...i so so so love sophie ellis-bextor...go get her album!!! its so nice...esp 4 ppl who like dance music like me^^ shall we dance? ^^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_Nsi05HkXw the above link is one of her older...and more famous tracks^^

[K]azuki

2007-08-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

WHOO HOO!!!

I GOT A1 FOR MY CHINESE O LEVEL!!!

Its like OMG la!...haha...i so didnt expect to get a1...i mean i was sick on the dae of the exam and i can still get my a1...lady luck must be lovin me...heehee...

those who didnt do well dun be sad k....dun let it affect u in ur english o levels...must score well~!

so god damn happy...one more step closer to my course in np! wait for me! im coming :p

well...dad's comin home todae...again...sigh...im guessin i jus haf to put on a facade...well blog again k..

so happy!

[K]azuki out!

2007-08-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

yes! My com is finally fixed^^

haven blogged for quite awhile...almost forget how to log in...but the i realized that it was jus the fault of blogger!...bleah...scare the hell out of me...hee...so much happen^^ let me recap^^

well AKLTG came to my school to hold their school camp...and i must say...i really enjoyed myself...esp with friends there...a pity my r/s with one of my friends seem a lil strained now...sigh...a lil wasted...after the camp tot my r/s with friends will get better...but oh wells...

Then i helped out in my ELDDS for their National Fire Prevention Skit Competition...supposedly im suppose to step down...but oh wells...me and my friends changed the script....and frm the 6th place in the preliminaries round....I WON US GOLD!! but of cuz cannot forget my actors^^ if not for them...it wont be so successful oso...thanks!

next wed is my o lvl english orals....sigh...all those takin ur orals...good luck eh!...heehee...we can all do well!

last but by no means least in my chain of thoughts...is a person...
met this person on national dae....so symbolic right?...dunno...jus felt this attraction for this person...hmmm...infactuation? love at first sight?....i dunno....i jus noe i nvr felt like this for a rather long time...not this strongly at least...

well to this person...u noe who u are....if u readin this...dun worry eh..i'll cherish this...wont give u a reason to distrust me...never will...jus so i can hold u^^

well thats all for now ba...i'll blog soon^^

[K]azuki out!

2007-06-19T14:12:00.000+08:00

FINALLY ONLINE!!!!

Like OMG LA!!! freaking com dunno had some problem...can use mouse...but cant type...

but yes!!!...even if its temporary i can still use my keyboard now!

oh yea...cant wait 4 all the good movies!!!!
jus watched "Fantastic 4: Rise of the silver surfer"... tot the first one was better...but doesn't mean the second one was bad la...haha

i wanna watch Transformers!!!! Nancy Drew!!! erm....the one with the penguin...surf it? ....tink thats the title...so many movies....so little money and time...haha

oh well..tomoro will be in day camp alr...so sad la....should haf known i dun signed up...cuz i wanna go to uncle ringo's amusement park!!! hee...kinda childish 4 me to say it...but heck!

last night was wierd...haha...they say dreams are opposite...but the bloody dream left me with so many question marks...haha...i was dreaming that i was dreaming of havin an orgasm...its like....huh?..haha...oh wells...we all haf our dry periods dun we?...well now im hooked to rihanna's new album!!!...so addictive...heehee....well im goin back to listen....catch ya all ltr :)

[K]azuki out!

2007-06-04T13:25:00.000+08:00

oh wells....haha....26 hearts....and letter...in return with nothin
guess all is fair in love and war eh?...but then again...ppl should really heal faster...wait...i cant even do that...sigh....chinese would call this"烂桃花" simply meanin that...i haf bad luk in love now...heehee but oh well....enough bout the emo bull shit...

this week...haha...i was kinda on the hunt of disgutin habits of us singaporean...well...disgustin is kinda too much...i'll say revoltin ba^^

#1-that would be the mrt....like seriously people!....if u are readin this and guilty...can u please change?! there is a reason the yellow lines are drawn on the outside of the door....and even if they arent....isnt it common courtesy to let the ppl get out first?!! if u keep pushin ur way in...how will people get out?!

#2-i dont think there is a sign called smoke's club right outside the main door of a shoppin center...i understand that smokers haf little places to smoke...but please look at ur surroundings can?! so many freakin children runnin around...go to a place with more adults ad smoke there...at least adults will run...children will jus take it all in...

#3-understand wat is respect and privacy or not!!!! when i am havin a conversation with my friend....please kindly dun stare and point and look away....yesbitch...if u are readin this....im referin to u!...im not blind eh...laughin at us...its lke omg...i can hook up with a gal lookin better than u any dae...point...laugh and talk bout us behind our back...bet ya must be a bitch...but i still highly doubt u're gonna out bitch me any dae soon...its not a sin to haf a private conversation eh...so next time u do something like that....and in case u're that pea brained that u dun get it...next time u wanna poin at someone and make fun of someone and talk bad bout them bitch...instead of listenin to ur bitchy nature...perhaps...reflect on something called the human conscious...or maybe u dun haf one eh biatch....

heehee...well thats all i found....will try to find more next time!...to dig out all our bad habits....hee...well thats all for now...no photo todae...cya again ok?...ciao ciao~

[K]azuki out!

2007-05-29T13:16:00.000+08:00

hmmmm....first attempt on mother tongue "O" jus ended. Dun really tink i did so well...haha...with my blocked nose and temperature runnin...im surprised i could even sit through the whole paper...

well not feelin my best now...physically and emotionally...hee!

its like so unfortunate lo....this year mad rush...most of most of my hols are gonna be spent studyin...first 2 weeks taken up for extra lesson...last week haf adam khoo camp in skool...though i attended it before alr....mum jus one me to go 4 a refresher course^^

so there goes 3 weeks...only third week to relax...so many movies to watch....shrek...pirates...ll havent watch yet!!!!...so many ppl watch le....left me T_T who wan ask me out 4 movie or date leh?

sigh...hate bein sick....like my brain cant get enough oxygen...hopefully i'll blog soon...nw not exactly feeling the mood to type wats happenin in my life...anyone wanna ask me outin the hols....dun be shy eh^^

[K]aZuKi out!

2007-05-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

bleah bleah!....haha todae went to para by myself....didnt feel like havin company

todae like stroll down memory lane...heehee...was doin bad on my para machine then i decided to play songs that represented the ppl like last time...maybe presently oso^^

"Mikado" -----> My fave song....so i but of cuz like myself (but i aint a narcissist!!!!)

"Made of fire"----->For that guy lo....name start with "R" one...heehee...liked him lots

"B C" (cant spell the name!!!)-----> Dedicated to MY SOTONG!!

"Ultra-high heels"----->a turtle....a turtle i once liked....the turtle who first taught me para^^

the last one was jus a random song^^...haha...well now to show u wat i bought yesterdae^^

its a bear chain with a key attached behind i bought....cute right?!!!!

and then this bear oso!!!heehee...its so cute cute cute la!

good luck to everyone havin mid year k....u haf my best wishes^^ love ya all!

apart frm that cat murderer!....dun let me catch u buster

[K]azuki out!

2007-04-28T11:18:00.000+08:00

another month passed....still didnt manage to blog often...sigh

well update on my life:

now rushin my mid year exams....mus score well!!!! esp maths... gambatte!!!!

then some asshole poisoned my cat....died le...so sad la...haix....dun let me find that killer!!!

not goin to blog much todae...hugs all! miss ya

will try to blog more often

taken at the comic shop at vivo^^

[K]aZuKi out!

2007-03-26T18:48:00.000+08:00

Sheesh Haven't blogged in like ever...been busy busy busy^^....april 11th still got my SYF competition....gonna be damn damn busy..."O" year is really not a joke sia...study study study....work load piling up until my neck!

only time to relax is weekend....but then i haf additional tuition now....must get good grades!! aimin for under 14 points...must get into the course i want^^

had nothin to do so i went para on the weekends...haha....my mum brought me to go para^^...cool right!!! then played the mahjong game with her! quite fun^^

then yesterdae i watched The Bean's Holiday.....was not bad...quite funny....laughed till my stomach hurt so badly....went to the arcade...then got a bad scare cuz i tot i lost my hp strap...but all in all was a nice dae...

while on sat...i was suppose to go to the Sigapore Fashion Week Fashion Show(boy thats quite a mouthful eh?) but then was too rushed so decided to forgo it...went to eat long john with mum then went over to suntec to waste sometime till we met my aunt to go celebrate my maternal grandma's bdae...was kinda borin...but i toke some pic^^

isn't the sunset beautiful?

me cam whorin^^

me cam whoring(2)=D

2007-03-04T12:34:00.000+08:00

hey...jus realized i nvr blogged 4 so long....damn...haha

well nothin much happened lately...was my term assessment...haha...finally passed my maths....so happy....got a new wallet....a new hp strap n most importantly.....MY DREAMGIRLS SOUND TRACK!!!!...hehe....enjoyin every moment of it...

last night i went to watch a play with my drama coach in it...was quite good i must say....so get ur bums up n get to the Alliance Francaise Theatre n buy the tic fr the show called "Under The Dragon Moon" ...or jus go to any sistic counter.....must support wor...haha

This month i oso bought the new BoA album n a new bag...lol....damn....tink im spendin a tad bit too much....but heck...haha....i love it^^...will try to upload the songs to my player^^

well thats all i haf for now lo...try to update more often....muack!!

[K]aZuKi out!

2007-02-05T18:37:00.000+08:00

hehe...sat was such a nice dae^^

Went out with my mum...was suppose to cut my hair...but then salon was full but dun matter cuz i cut todae le^^....so nice....i lyk it! hehe=D have a look^^
nice?....well...im actually quite satisfied!

back to saturdae!...haha...i bought so many nice shirts lo^^....i tink they are nice...frm ebase to pmk to nike...all nice^^ n i oso ate at new york new york with my mum....mmmm quite nice!...haha....show u guys the pic^^

looks so good right!!! -zoom in to the chicken-

MMMMM....so nice!!!! haha

then we went over to pmk where i bought a super kawaii shirt!!!...haha i tink its cute...i loved it...mine!!!....haha

isn't it so cute?!(i wan blue hair!)

so after that....we went over to my aunts hse...went to walk the dog with them....but almost havin blister le so i borrowed their slippers instead!....n wat happens?!....when i walk half the distance, the shoe gave way! the straps broke which left me walkin ard barefoot...lol...show u pic^^

n then my superbly smart younger cousin ran over my bare feet with his inline skate!...haha...so pain u noe...lol but overall it was such a fun dae!...lol

well...this is all 4 now...blog nxt time...cya!

[K]aZuKi out!

VMA - Madonna, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Missy Eli

2007-01-27T03:50:00.001+08:00

Madonna Jump

2007-01-27T03:49:00.003+08:00

Ayumi Hamasaki - Startin' (English Subs)

2007-01-27T03:49:00.001+08:00

2007-01-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

MOSHI MOSHI!!!!^^

how u guys doin todae leh?...hehe....so cold la...todae somemore 4got to bring my jacket to skool...damn cold la....then funniest ting is...i got off my bus...but had to stand in the rain to wait 4 the traffic light to turn green...at leasti wasnt totally drenched...

well....todae im in a music mood....so im gonna dedicate this post to all the songs i lyk frm youtube...haha...i like it...if u dun...u can dun watch it=D

jus afew todae...cuz slepy lo...heh...nitex...

gippal out!

2007-01-24T17:39:00.000+08:00

yawn yawn....tired these daes...nvr seem to have enough sleep...so god damn sleepy...yesterdae met my new drama coach....quite a nice lady....haha....with interesting choice of games^^

met a frien through para para the dae before yesterdae...nv knew that it could happen...hehe....was kinda shocked....guess i should go para more often now on eh?...hehe

then so many ting happen lo...my other cca teacher(not eldds) go look up my eldds teacher to tok bad bout me...wanted to hold me back so i'll get f9 in my cca cert...so wat la....thank god my eldds teacher came to tok to me....n asked me to write a letter to the principal to let me drop that cca so i can make eldds my core cca...so sian la....all problems....n no one to share it with me...bleah!!!!....是不公平的!!!!

i oso wan someone!!!!....haha....but see how things go lo...now alot problems 4 me...hehe...settle one by one....but more importantly...i need to sleep now....so nitey nitex^^

gippal out!

2007-01-20T12:32:00.000+08:00

hehe....is my new skin nice?...haha...the other one was gettin old n boring...hows this one?

i apologise for the puny music player...haha cuz it'll cut into my posts...well nothin much to say todae....oh ya!....the ngee ann open house is nice lo...haha better than tp at least!...so much fun....that i 4got to take pic!!!!...haha

i'll blog soon k...promise^^ muack!!!!

gippal out!

2007-01-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

yawn....man skool is so borin this few daes...4got how stereo it made my life....haha

wake up....run to bus stop....hop on bus...look out 4 cute ppl....sleep....then get out n blah blah blah blah blah....lol....but everytime i tink of my "o"....damn the nerves get the better of me...sit there n blank out....especially since my DnT coursework has already started....haix....this yr will b a mad rush...

dun tink i can blog very much this yr...haha....will try as often as i can...but dun tink much ppl will read it...so ya la...haha...

damn...i need company...haha....anyone wanna audition 4 a place to b my date...guys gals...dun make a diff...hehe....but guys are much prefered....not cuz i dun lyk gals...but....erm....not to sound sexist....but need a independent stead...hehe^^

well i got to go now...tag me?

gippal out!

2007-01-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

hehe....todae so hot....almost missed my bus stop....sleepy...so i'll keep this really short^^...

well went to popular...to buy this stupid A3 paper...this is rendall n he got me back on para!!!!.....para para para para!!!!....hehe....god i love it....but he is lyk way better than me lo...hehe....i lyk the song mikado! anyone wanna jio me out play?!...hehe

we played till lyk 7 then we went to haf dinner at food court....dunno y lost all my appetite...haha...but 4 desert we had chocolate fondue!!!...haha

looks so good right?....haha....but the chocolate not that nice...hehe...powdery de...but its cheap...wat can i say....nxt time eat the ex one!...hehe hu wan follow me!...haha

well i noe its short...but im sleepy...yawn....nitex nitex...muack~

gippal out!

2007-01-06T10:11:00.000+08:00

Morning....yawn....haven been blogging much....sorry....com giving me probs...n now i stupid sore eyes....bloody hell...

skools been ok la....at least the insults stop...i tink....

went out to padang to catch the fireworks on new yrs eve...man...the poor ppl at esplanade...haha...but one qns....was there even a countdown?!....i didnt even hear 54321....jus fireworks...i mean the private party nxt to me were counting down till 7 when the fireworks started....god that was hilarious...hehe

wooo....mystery man....hehe

love the night view of shenton way^^

wooo....love birds everywhere...haha

sitting down n slackin at raffles mrt...man the crowd was bad

this is wat i call colours on the bay^^

pink does well 4 you....you should consider it

n finally....my ic!....god i look so wierd in it....tsk tsk~

2006-12-26T21:14:00.000+08:00

Happy Boxing Dae!!!!

hope christmas has been good 4 u ppl...not bad 4 me...haha....i love gifts!.....n i love all my friens...new friens oso!...hehe

here are some pics i toke at a gatherin on christmas eve^^...no need 4 me to say more since a picture says a thousand words right?....haha....enjoy^^

me n alex posin....IN THE MIDDLE OF A FOOD COURT! the piggy rendall gave me 4 my bdae^^...its a toy n a pillow!!!

haha...everyone gatherin ard wishin each other merry christmas^^

my new frien~!....good lookin hor!(shhh~....dun let him noe)

alex shieldin himself from snow spray!....haha....so funny!

awwww~~~...love birds....so sweet!!!....i oso wan!!!!!

children havin their fun!....haha....arent they cute?....snow spray!!!

victim of a snow spray attack!.....my condolences....hehe^^

haha....this one is totally white already.....ghost of christmas present!

recovery ward....hehe....all the sprayed ppl^^

haha....this christmas.....so much fun!...haha....^^.....n mr Rees!....ur secret is still with me hor!....dun 4get....hehe...

gippal signin out!

2006-12-12T12:41:00.000+08:00

heylo again^^....hehe....this few daes been usin my camera alot....well its new n cool....hehe...so make use lo...hu wan me to take their pic??....hehe

well yesterdae went out with kero to watch the movie "The Holiday"....so nice sweet funny....to all love birds out there....must bring ur stead go see!!!! of cuz the movie will oso make a fantastic first date if u haf been tryin to ask someone u really lyk out....end of the yr almost here...do wat u must n go all out!!!! chioong ar!!!!!! hehe^^

here are some pics that i toke recently with my K800i....haha

this was at one of my family's BBQ which jus passed over the weekend....was kinda bored....so toke some pic of myself^^....n the whole event of cuz....but havin migrane so dun tink can ta han to post it on now...hehe^^

before--->

love my camera^^

<---after

tried to make him smile....but he refuse....hmph....but he is sick la haha need to give him leeway^^

dun u jus lyk the night view of the cathay buildin.....i love it!!! hehe

a random photo of the christmas lightin of the streets....looks quite lyk pixie dust hangin above the streets if u look down orchard road...haha^^

lol....now im lookin 4 ppl hu are willing to go out n watch the movie "The Holiday" with me again...haha...love love love the show^^

hehe

gippal out!

2006-12-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

hey ho folks^^...so happy to get my new camera^^.....its so clear!!!!....haha....so its time to whip out my camera n start cam whore-ing!.....hehe

haha....me tryin to act cute....not very well taken...aftr all its my first time cam whorin...give me sometime to warm up...haha....^^.....but cute?....haha

well this is the diamond Christmas tree in bugis.....woooo....sparkle-ly sparkle-ly!!!!....haha....so many ppl standin ard takin pic oso....!!!....hehe....

when i haf more pic i'll update....haha.....ask me out to take pic with me oso lo^^...haha

gippal signin out!

2006-12-06T12:26:00.000+08:00

haix....sad sad....was already touchin my new hp yesterdae lo!!!!!!!!!.....unfair unfair unfair!.....now sick lyk hell siao.....fever.....vomittin....migrane....

arghhhhhh.....give up liao la....then got dunno gal or guy....gal shows wat a bitch n pathetic u are....guys leh.....no need say more....go figures....

i mean if u try to get into my blog....when i set a password....shows how childish n pathetic u are when u come in jus to type 2 words....if u really hate me....u wont even try it....n to tink u ppl call me an attention seeker when u are so much worse...

word of advice....go look in a mirror....or if u cant find one....go look in the drain....mayb it wont break frm how ugly u ppl look....sorry to say....but im here to stay....so either live with it...or floor it!....

gippal out....

"Life's a bitch....live with it!"
gippal kwok

2006-11-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

hey ya guys^^.....n not 4gettin the gals too of cuz^^

breaking away frm blogging but then still miss blogging...awwww^^.....at least this is one place that can listen to wats happenin in ur life n wont make comments....n im makin use of my time constructively right?.....well i hope i am^^

leavin on my trip tomoro...heehee....jus a fairly short trip 4 3d2n....but it'll b away frm all my troubles^^.....will miss certain ppl *ahem*....no need to name names out la...its more special when the bond is there:p

still sad though....cant get my new hp yet...haix....wait 4 me my k800i....爸爸很快就会得到你的!
hehe...

oh ya....was readin lime^^....then was tokin bout AIDS....but i dun haf hor....bleah....dun anyhow mistaken.....bleah....let me intro the ABC to stoppin AIDS from gettin around....so listen up ppl!

Abstinence from sex or high risk sexual behaviours
Be faithful
Condoms

and thats the ABC to AIDS 4 u^^.....remember...playing safe is the only way to go...never n i mean NEVER put urself at risk!...its jus a lil self control ppl^^

well got to go prepare 4 tomoro's trip....gonna really miss alot of ppl!!!!....argh....hugs ppl.....play safe now!....haha.....bye^^

2006-11-14T11:49:00.000+08:00

single no more^^....

twinkle in ur eyes...

twinkle on ur hat.....

ur memorable giggles last in my head...

lovin u more with everything u do....

causin my heart to ache with letters spelling...

M.I.S.S.I.N.G. Y.O.U.

indecisiveness n uncertainty

confused n scared...

to dare to step into the foreign...

i deem u my ever best^^

shy as u was, u allowed me to hug u tight...

and plant a kiss on ur cheeks for goodnight...

at the end of the night...

u were still scared...

with me?....or datin me?

hope u enjoy the moments with me...

cuz i cherish all the time i had with u^^...

i hope we last a lifetime together...

so i can love n adore u the way i shld^^

I LOVE U^^

BY:JK

Dedicated to:GT^^

2006-11-11T15:18:00.000+08:00

heylo^^.....sorry 4 not updatin my blog 4 such a long time^^... got caught up doin....erm...no need to get into details la hor?=D

feelin so sian now....haha.....watched so many movies le...n somemore all at the cathay building...i tink everyone workin at the cathay buildin can recognize me le^^....been there 4 times in 5 daes....siao hor?....haha

well....lets see....i dun tink i blogged bout death note....did i?....haha...well...its quite an ok show ba....haha not that nice la....but still lookin 4ward to the next one....death note: the last name sounds nice...haha

the prestige was a good show^^.....good ending....at least it was to me...haha....goody goody show^^....haha....deserve watchin...then followed by Dead Or Alive....wat can i say....hot gals n cute guys kickin major evil ass jus turns me on....haha....2 thumbs up^^.....as 4 the movie flushed away....jus lyk its name....should b flushed away to a place where no one can reach it...geez...so unrealistic n dumb....

the movie i give all thumbs up n cheer 4 is the movie i caught yesterdae n the dae b4 yesterdae^^.....yep twice...n that is....STEP UP!!!!!.....nice nice nice nice nice nice nice!...the dancin n all was lyk so cool n the music i simply adore....well....erm....if anyone of u haf the song " 'Til the Dawn " by drew sidora....which is the scene where everyone was dancin in the night club while the gal was on stage singing.....PLS SEND ME!!!!!!.....haha....love that song so much....well....i haf the song "get up" by ciara oso frm the show....its the song playin in the background now....

wan it....jus tell me the word n i'll send u^^....haha....can add me on msn oso if u're a blog hopper^^....

thats all folks....im back!....haha

gippal out!

2006-10-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

^^...well too many things happen n too quickly in this month of october...jus seemed to zoom by...haha

bloody horoscope said i'll meet someone right this month but everyone seemed wrong...haha....or am i just wrong?right now while im typin my blog my oh so grt grandma is smoking her lungs away n killing me in the mean time...cant hate smokers more then i already do:p

well im starting to give up on relationships....found out that i haf very bad taste in ppl....guys n gals*tsk tsk*....haha....haven touched a gal or guy(as in hold hands la!!!!!!!!!) for weeks i think...haha....

well hear ye hear ye....im going to stop wooing ppl....time i jus sit back n relax....cuz i figured that when i woo ppl.....those ppl take me 4 granted....well at least thats been most of the cases 4 me....such a loser!...haha...oh n to the new jack ass i noe....if u're readin this....FLOOR IT N GET OUT OF MY LIFE!.....i dun need to b teased by a loser by u....oh n btw ppl....the tease here is not the makin fun kind of tease!.....^^....

Dun tink anyone will woo me....haha...so im good as single 4 my teenage life now wont i?....haha....quite happy with the idea actually^^....cant say i wont b happy to revertin to my old self with ome "me time"^^....haha

jus watched the movie death note n the prestige by myself!!!!!!......wat a good show!....

death note was lyk quite funny la....haha but i wan to get my hands on the note book!!!!!!...the concept of it is quite unlikely to happen though...haha...but it'll make a good collectable though
N i noe where to get it!....haha my junior told me it can b bought at comic connections at jus 10 bucks!!!....haha ppl lyk me so happy to noe where to get it must go buy hor!...

the prestige aint half bad oso!....lol....loved the endin...bet u guys will too^^

haha....thats all 4 now folks^^....lol....goin to update a vid on my blog ltr....staytuned^^

gippal:cherrios^^

2006-10-20T15:39:00.000+08:00

na...haha....im goin to find the person ltr....

but i talked over the phone with the person last night...n i tink he said that even if we meet it wont make a diff...so call me a wimp....call me a loser....but...im goin to leave a rose n a note of apology to him ltr...i guess i got this comin for me....haha....if i didnt reject him in the first place things wont get to this stage...^^

guess i already saw this comin...haha...bleah!!!!!!!!.....i hate fallin in love!!!!!!!!!!

gippal signin out!

2006-10-18T18:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm....y is fallin for someone always so confusin?....when im serious bout somethings....the only person i wan to belief me dun believe me at all....y is it always so hard?

mayb im jus not the serious type but im very sure i am now....so im goin to put things in the hands of fate....im meetin the eprson i lyk in esplanade n we're goin to play a lil game...he'll haf to walk around 4 30 min....if i find him within the 30 min he will go out with me....but if i dun....then i oso haf nothin to say....

i noe its childish...but i jus wan to love that person la....do really lyk the person....n if the person is readin this....i hope u believe me...i'll put my happiness in e hands of fate...

^^....b prepared....i'll definitely find u...cuz i believe we are meant to be!

gippal signin out!

2006-10-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

haven blog in a long time....haha....actually jus 4 daes la...not that long ba^^

dunno....something changin me le....bleah....finally feel lyk im no longer cooped up ^^

first of all....i noe to some ppl i am a scum....namely zeke n andy....well....cant say i can change ur opinion...but dun tink i'll giv much attention to u ppl since u ppl nvr did look me as a person n only knew how to take advantage of me....so i dedicate this song to u!

another group of ppl are those hu haf been hurt by me....rees, alex and bonson.....erm...whether u will b readin this or not...n whether u believe this or not....im sorry....really am....i guess no matter how much i hate ppl hu takes advantage of ppl....i still turn out to b one somewhere along the way....and 4 that....i apologise.....frm the bottom of my heart...

n 4 the future ppl hu wanna b friens or more with me!.....haha....when u tink im too much...dun give in to me....jus scold me....haha....n this song i hope u guys enjoy it.....dedicate this song oso to the ppl hu haf been rejected n happen to b on this page!....lol....u will survive! jus believe

gippal!^^

2006-10-10T10:46:00.000+08:00

NONONONONO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i didnt wan things to b this way....i didnt noe u still lyked me....mayb i did....
but aftr the movie u nvr contacted me...i dunno...pls dun do this....i really need u as a frien....pls...im beggin you....pls dun leave....i really didnt noe that i hurt u so much.....im insensitive i noe....im sorry....pls...dun leave....

5pm....i'll wait 4 u at suntec sky garden....i'll wait there....pls....i dun wan to lose u as a frien....todae, 10/10/2006, at 5pm.....at suntec's sky garden....i'll wait there....pls turn up if u can....pls give me another chance....im really sorry

2006-10-09T17:11:00.000+08:00

8th of october....will nvr 4get this dae....

i dunno wat pushed me to get add u on msn....or even say those things.....but u totaly charmed me over...

u're not the vain type.....neither are u the ego maniac...but u are very sincere....n that touched me....

u said that u haf someone u haf in mind....i said....its ok....i'll wait 4 u....no matter what....
words frm the bottom of my heart....

always so sweet....when i asked to meet....u agreed steadily....always so sweet....

i arrived early....u reached pantin cuz u came out of ur hse late...was so cute....

we both bought bubble tea n went outside to sit...

so cute the shirt u were wearin...."the incredibles"....will nvr jus remind me of the movie....but u instead...

we started walkin to the nearby parks....n were talkin bout "A"...must admit....i was a lil jealous...

u 4 one....haf made me feel lyk i've nvr felt in a long time.....i jus wanna fade in ur embrace.....

we sat down in a quiet park....n started chattin....u were in the midst of lookin at my ipod when i pressed my lips against urs...i felt u kiss bac....did u?....ur lips were so soft...jus felt lyk kissin u again....but by then u were already blushin...

i tried to advance....but u placed a barrier around u....was a lil disappointed....

i walked to the exercisin corner n started leapin ard n actin childish to hide my sadness....

but u saw right through me....u called me back to the bench....held my hand....n said...i promise to sort things out quickly....i'll giv u an answer...

jus through this words....u brightened my dae....

really...

i can safely say that i love u so....i really do....n no matter how long....i'll wait....4 u....

thanks for givin me the chance to noe u n to love u...

i noe u are very easily agitated...n i wont bother u much over these things....i promise....

if "A" ever makes u unhappy u noe where to find me....i'll b right here...when u need someone to tok to ok?....

i dedicate this song in my blog to u....

i love u....always will n do

2006-10-05T19:24:00.000+08:00

heylo ppl^^.....haha....will make this a quick one(or not:p)....damn bloddy haze todae....makin me choke my head off....*cough cough*....so unfortunate i haf no stead at this time too...haha....so sad hor?...not really actually....haha....at least i no need to get into arguements every so often...well dunno la....anyone got an answer 4 me if being single or attached is better?....haha...when everyone around me is changin...should i change?....not tryin to be emo or anything ar....haha...but true la...ppl around me are all changin....should i change too?....dunno la....so confusin tings...

haha....was on the bus home todae when i spotted a really cute advertisment on an bus...it was 4 the speak good english movement...

they toke a sample of wat s'poreans always said n corrected it....so cute la...haha....the wrong one is"how long more to orchard road?".....sounds very common right?

but the correct one should b "how much longer is it to orchard road?"....haha

so cute right?....haha but then though its a commendable effort on singapore's part.....its gonna b quite difficult to remove then singlish in us but i must say good job in puttin....eh i mean adding humour to such a solemn movement!....haha go check out their site

http://www.goodenglish.org.sg/SGEM/events/index.htm ...dun navigate away frm the first page yet....i swear the first page is lyk so uber cute la!....haha....

now i got to go mug le!....got my chem's avogadro number to learn n my "Dulce et Decorum Est" 4 lit....anyone can help....i promise to giv a kiss in return!....haha....well signin off....again then

gippal

2006-10-04T18:52:00.000+08:00

woah!....haha....thanks 4 all e bdae wishes...haha....didnt really haf time to blog the last few daes...haha....was a lil preoccupied....toke lots of pics on sundae when my friens celebrated with me at kbox!....haha....was lyk damn fun la....scroll down to slowly see lo haha....but not all pics are nice!

my bdae cake^^....mmmm mango!

me n liwen tryin to be "high" on the sofa:p

liwen's solo!....u go gal!....haha

awww....haha looks lyk nicholas is singin to rees^^

well those were some of the pictures that were taken in kbox...haha...suppose to haf more...but that dumb dumb liwen went to force ppl to delete it....haha....cant stand her sa jiao.....bleah....

after that we went to the sky garden cuz mr alex complained he was sleepy lo....so we went there not to rest....but truth or dare time!.......haha

me havin to b a duck n waddle around!...haha....so humiliating!

my revenge!....haha....alex havin to do pole dance ard liwen!

my runway walk!....was for a dare of course!...haha

well had alot of fun on that dae....haha bought a ring for myself!...its lyk so nice la....after tat we all went to take neo print but of cuz....haha last pic....

hoped u guys enjoyed the post....haha....not really a good post though....but tried at least....oh n i bought two albums yesterdae....ken hirai's 10th anniversary album n ultra blue by utadfa hikaru.....both sound so nice....haha....those hu wanna hear the song.....ask me to send k^^....n if u are a stranger readin my blog then add me on msn then i send u lo...once again....haha aikido_rawks@hotmail.com remember to leave a tag!^^....will try to tag more often!....haha...till nxt time then :p

2006-09-26T17:27:00.000+08:00

well....in particular dae mostly sucks lo...2 pairs of my fave shoe jus got stolen by some son of a cow in e mid of the night....arghh....so sad (T_T)....my fave pairs of shoe....haha...so heart pain....

mayb lyk my frien said....if old ones dun go how do new ones come(sounds so wierd when applied here though)

well, while im on the topic...i jus wanna say to my frien gary....erm....dunno if u will read this at all....dun be sad....i tink everyone can see that u still cant forget him...n its ok....sometimes its hard to 4get someone...n its difficult 4 ppl to try to comfort u too cuz we dunno where to start frm...only u can snap out of this....so do jus that!....haha...friens will always b here 4 u....even if no one wanna "frien" u....im here....promise....^^....so cheer up k...u'll do perfectly fine...i believe in u...haha since u cant make it 4 my bdae i still expect my "happy birthdae" wor....cannot forget!....no need gift...haha....unless u insist :P

well im celebratin with my bdae with friens(none frm skool) n god bro n sis....at kbox this sundae....^^....so happy....haha....for once i can finally celebrate with my friens....well if u guys wanna come along....or someone hu wan noe me as a frien n wan come out oso can de....no gifts allowed!....haha..... for more info bout this u can contact me at aikido_rawks@hotmail.com or jus drop a msg or call on my hp at 90405996....guy or gals i both oso wont mind de....haha....so interested ppl....contact me soon....i dun lyk goin out in big grp de....so first com first serve^^

2006-09-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

wow....i survived e first week of skool^^....

i will survive~~....i will survive~~

hehe...jus feel lyk singin that song now!

guess i do really haf true friens...shld haf nvr doubted that fact^^

first of all i would lyk to thanks all e nice ppl hu left taggs on my blog....thanks pals^^....n of cuz to e ppl frm skool hu support me lyk nothin happened at all

thanks alot....really....so touched*tear trickling down*=D

well i tink my teachers are lyk cool too...haha...was havin this hist debate thing todae...n my teacher knew ppl bout e ppl insultin me...so she said"before we start lets state some ground rules. 1.no one is to use abusive terms

2.no insultin each other in this process

3.no personal attacks!

then everyone look at me...haha...so funny la but thanks mrs saviour...haha....grt lesson todae^^

cant actually remember any particular events cuz this whole week lyk damn fast la with all e verbal insult n mockin....but i can smile through it...haha...so happy but dunno y...^^

well another joke time taken frm e L*M* magazine sex column:P

Q:How can u tell when a mechanic just had sex?

A:One of he's fingers is clean=P

Q:How do you confuse a female archaeologist?

A:Give her a used tampon and ask her which period it came from>.<

Q:What do u call a lesbian dinosaur?

A:Lickalotopuss(no insult intended.....jus copied it T_T)

5 reasons the penis needs a raise^^

1.It works at great depths

2.It plunges head first into everything

3.It works in a damp enviroment with poor ventilation

4.It works extra hard on weekends

5.Its work exposes it to contagious diseases!!!

remember giv it a raise....promote a healthy work enviroment*sniggers*

gippal signin off^^

2006-09-18T18:43:00.000+08:00

hey....well i suppose there is some new ppl visitin my blog todae.....YEA IM BISEXUAL.....WATCHA GONNA DO BOUT THAT?.....

in my CME lesson this week i guess thats when e whole class officially noes im bisexual....jus a word 4 word ting till it finally reached some big mouth hu in CME lesson jus shouted:"Mdm.....the guy sittin next to me lyks guys n gals!!!!" in e mock hysterical manner...haha

well i was pretty cool with it....aftr all i've been meanin to let those ard me noe im bi aftr all....wat a way to do it then in an awkwar silence eh?....haha....but my CME teacher(frm england)....she said...."so?....there's nlthin wrong with lykin someone frm e same sex....u guys live in the yr 2006..."

cant say i dun agree...haha....but jus didnt expect to hear that frm my teacher....haha....especially one hu barely noes me...but glad that she is open minded unlyk my previous english teacher hu is so clearly homophobic!!!..i mean seriously....to all e str8 out there...lyk jason chan!!!!.....u dun haf e looks nor personality....as if i will fall 4 u....trust me on that....u're not e type on any gays or bi's must-date list.....

but somethin that i read in a fellow frien's blog....e sterotypical mindedness of ppl bout gay n bisexual is really startin to piss me off....ppl hu are readin this better get this into their head

Fact 1:Bisexuals are not e same as Gays!!!!!!.....its lyk puttin an apple n pear together n says they are exactly e same!!!....im not discriminatin gays but bi's lyk gals n guys....gays well jus lyk guys!....there is a major difference....

Fact 2:THIS MAKES ME BOIL!!!!!......wats with u ppl....being bisexuals n gays dun mean we are any less cheap lyk u!!!!!!!.....so unless u tell me that u haf random sex too dun u accuse that we do it!!we haf ego n pride n selflove too!!!!!!.....we dun go ard givin ppl blowjobs as if its our everydae activity!!!!.....get a life.....stop being oblivious to e fact that not everyone is lyk u ppl hu are str8!!!!!!!

Fact 3:wat in tarnation's name makes u tink that all gays n bis are sissy??????.....open ur eyes n look ard.....sissy is someone hu acts feminine.....unless u are that blind that u cant c or that ur peabrain of urs dun haf e function of lookin n analizing.....i dun tink u can b oblivious to e fact that gays n bis can b all ard u!!!!!

haha....guess i lost lots of ppl hu will visit my blog but guess it cant b helped.....but seriously e ugly close minded ppl in my skool....if u can tell me that we are disgustin but yet u can visit colin n kero's blog oh so often....u're plainly contradictin urself....so b4 u make a comment....look in a mirror....cuz it nvr lies

2006-09-17T15:40:00.000+08:00

arghhh.....bad dae la....

todae i tink i hurt someone....im sorry....but im still in a recoverin period n i dun tink it'll b fair 4 u to stead me jus so i can 4get kero....i dunno if u will b lookin at this now....but im sorry alex....

but i really not playin with ur feelings....can we b friens till i tink i really lyk u not makin use of u to 4get something?....guess u are mad at me....n if im not wrong u blocked me in msn too....cuz i can c u on9 in irc but not on msn....

can we go bac lyk we were b4 this whole ting started....pls....i really wanna b friens with u...

im sorry...

pls dun b angry....hope to hear frm u....

gippal

2006-09-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

hey thanks ppl....would really lyk to thank e ppl hu tagged me to try n cheer me up....dun worry....im nvr one hu is down 4 long...haha

true i still do lyk him....

buts its ok la...haha...sometimes lykin someone means we jus got to let go....so yea...thanks 4 e sweet msgs^^....im quite ok now....but to those hu haf been here....would u lyk to b friens?...haha...

well if u do....my email is aikido_rawks@hotmail.com
feel free to add^^.....

todae was flag dae....so tired now....through todae....i deem that ppl with tin cans=plague
haha....ppl literally ran frm me....one gal was even more funny....was starin at me n said:"dun come to me, dun come to me"....so darn funny la....

but i haf a few ppl to affirm....first is e nice sweet jap lady hu was carryin lots of stuff....but despite that still approached me n donated 10 bucks to me once i said it was 4 a donation drive...such a generous person....

next is an australian couple....they dug out al their coins easily amountin to 5 bucks n donnated all to my can...haha...so nice of them

another is this funny cute guy hu donated 2 bucks....but when i was askin him to donate...he said:"wah....sun so hot still stand here??.....u not hot ar???.....wa liao...." was laughin la....but if i stood in e shade i dun tink i will b able to get much donation...

wont mind doin flag dae again....provided i haf ppl frm outside skool followin me.....haha i shy de la...todae was my god bro....hu wan accompany me nxt time?

so 2 ppl hu night b visitin my blog or has visited my blog....if u wanna b friens pls add me on msn....or giv me ur blog add to link.....promise im a nice guy^^....haha

*joke time*(jus tryin out....duno funny not....dun scold me)
An American N Japanese were sittin side by side in a plane to L.A when e Ameriacan suddenly turned n asked e Japanese:"What kind of ese are u?"
The confused Japanese, confused, replied:"Sorry but i don't understand wat u mean"
The American repeated:"What kind of ese are u?"
Again e japanese was confused over he's qns
The American now irritated yelled:"What kind os ese are u?!....Are u a Chinese, Japanese or Vietnamese????"
The Japanese then replied:"oh....im a Japanese"
Awhiles ltr....the Japanese turned n asked e American wat sort of "key" he was...
The American, frustated, yelled:"What do you mean what sort of key am i???"
The Japanese replied nicely:"Are u a Yankey, Donkey or monkey?"

moral of e joke:1.dun bitch me....cuz i'll definitely bitch back
2.never insult anyone!!!!!!!!!
take ur pick which moral u lyk better;D

2006-09-12T16:11:00.000+08:00

^^
todae was stupid....purposely skipped pe todae cuz was kinda feeling really lazy....braces hurtin lyk hell....jus tightened it yesterdae....

u noe...i tink i underestimated my friends....cuz aftr they i told them i was bi mostly were lyk....ok so???.....friens are still friens no matter wat...so happy^^.....but somewhat still sad....got rejected right aftr one dae....lol....well as long as im still haf hope i tink i cn still do well....

well there's e guy i lyked
<--------cute eh?.....jus 17 la.....argh e pain in my hart:P(NOT)

well at least it happened.....but cant say im completely happy bout it....

but yesterdae was a life saver.....haha....rushed right home aftr skool cuz needed to go to e immigration office to apply 4 e extension of passport....my pic was lyk quite ugly lo....haha....but at least i waxxed my hair up...not lyk in e neoprint....so UGLY LA....^^

finished ard 4+ but my dental appointment doesnt start till 615 la....was reluctant to go home so i walked ard marina(cuz my dental is there la!)

walked walked lyk a zombie then i spotted a bench....lyk thank god la!....was tired n sleepy so i toke a lil doze there....then this stupid person sat down nxt to me n woke me up la

well i saw this cute guy walkin over....but well i dun really care bout him until i noticed he kept starin at me la....haha....when i stared bac....he looked on elsewhere so cute!....then when he was finally out of sight i noticed he was walkin to e escalator....well to test if he was really interested in me....i lied bac n pretended to doze....then i stared up at e escalator n saw him still starin....haha so uber kawaii....tot that was e end of it...then 10 min ltr....he came down n walked passed me again! n entered e vcd shop diagonal frm me....well i decided to play ard n haf a lil fun

he entered frm e end of e left so i entered frm e left....i purposedly met walked n walked n met him in e middle of e shop....haha....he looked at me...then i jus smileed n nodded la...he was so cute....haha....then i walked ard somemore....i saw him left e store so i once again i tot it was over...haha....but jus to test i looked bac....aftr he walked front some distance he backtrackked....so i tested something out....i went up e escalator but made sure he cld c me do it jus then i did a sharp turn n stopped pretendin to sms right nxt to e escalator....he came up n walked normally then he saw me.....n blushed if im not wrong...haha....then i followed to do e tailing....^^

was so damn fun....haha....but 615 struck n i left to my dental clinic....had my fun

decided to go with purple this month....well....tot it wld b nice haha....then i went to e arcade to try my luck n c if e guy was still there....when i entered he jus left...haha...well we exchanged a last glance so i went str8 to my para machine...haha....dance half way n then he came in again....was jus bout enuff la...haha....lyk me then get my number....so i toke it to another lvl....saw him playin bomberman....so i sat down nxt to him to play e aeroplane game...he died n then walk away....was jus cursin him as a wimp then he sat down nxt to me n played!....haha....not bad la....was so cool....he looks cute la...average boish cute lo....

then i left cuz mum rushed me home 4 dinner...he followed oso....but i was goin str8 n he n his frien was goin down....then i noticed he asked his frien to go down first....so i waited by e railing...haha...he said(if im not wrong la):hey.....erm....wanna giv me ur number....?

so i jus toke he's hp n dailed my number....haha....he's name is goin to remain a mystery until he reply me!....tryin to ask him out on a date but now he still not replyin me....haha.....well wait 4 my nxt post ppl^^

2006-09-10T11:39:00.000+08:00

hey world.....bright new dae today eh...

todae i haf something to tell u guys....some may already noe....some still may not.....erm.....im a bisexual....haha

its something u guys will find out sonner or later so might as well hear it frm e horse's eh?.....haha.....but i would lyk to make something clr though.....this doesnt change me in e any way at all.....im still e same johnathon....still wierd,anti social n all that jazz...

but if u guys mind i really haf nothin to say....erm....not lyk i haven been hearin enuff rumours of me in skool....

but i haf to make something really clr.....gays or bisexual does not mean we are sissy....so b4 e ppl out there start passin mindless comments out there of how gays shld act.....or haf a preconception of wat gays n bisexuals are.....take that n throw it right out e window...

sterotypical thinkin is really not needed when u pass judgement on others.....well....anymore i say will still not change how u tink....but yea.....im bi....

2006-09-08T10:00:00.000+08:00

arghhhh.....life utterly sucks now....cant belief i was such an idiot to belief that scumbag......wont ever make that same mistake twice....big deal u got e 2 ppl one whom i lyked n one hu i lyk to try n corner me.....get this str8 buster.....try as u might....its wont work....cuz i didnt do anything wrong....so stop livin in ur own world n get bac to reality!?....partly my fault too......4 still believin that i can b friens with such a vile schemin ass such as urself.....nvm.....toke it as a lesson learnt.....doesnt mean wat u wan e other person will too....wont ever make e same mistake again.....on a lighter note.....haha.....found a dear......yep.....*smile*.....such a blessing.....haha.....cant wait to meet u......sorry u had to c my bitchy side though......gomen neh......muackzzzzz.......haha.....cant wait to meet u.......erm.....luv ya.....got to go.....chao......

2006-09-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

hey.....finally got bac to bloggin.....t'was such a long time b4 i convince myself to jus do this....well time i got over it i braced up^^.....well.....within this period i rushed a teacher daes skit....haha tink i acted quite badly....left all my worksheets backstage....damn....tink ppl threw them away already......went to watch 2 movies bac to bac oso on that dae.....Devil wears Prada n The Breakup......both were quite nice shows la.....haha.....needed comedy on that dae anyway....was seriously becomin a dull serious old man....haha....well i wanna jus say....dunno if u ppl agree with me....but i tink we shld kill e person hu created e term "white lie"....dun they noe its still a lie?....it still hurts when e other person find out.....its still a fuckin lie.....n they cover it up by sayin wat?......i jus didnt wanna hurt u....pls la....ppl are not that fragile then u tink.....so dun giv crap reasons lyk i did it to protect how u will feel....completely crap!.....such hypocrites....well jus glad we are no longer a part of each others life....haha.....ppl hu read this might tink im fierce....well....i actualy am....i tink i haf split personality.....one is johnathon e childish....another is johnathon e mature.....followed by johnathon e flirt.....johnathon full of angst.....n last but not least johnathon e cheerful one....so ppl hu wana ask me out....better beware k....haha.....but hope it doesnt stop u.....need company...haha

no moral lessons....apart frm....cherish tings ard u k....tings really do leave when u least expect....

johnathon

2006-08-20T09:20:00.000+08:00

hey guys gals n all those inbetweens....haha...so sian these daes.....so nvr been bloggin regularly....same old same old.....while yesterdae was kinda different lo....yep indeed it is....haha...a frien whom i nvr came in contact with suddenly called me up to go celebrate his birthdae together with him n his friens.....well i expected it to b kinda awkward since i wont noe anyone lyk freakin there!....but quite ok la....well....basically....first part was painfully shy la.....jus eatin my stuff n listenin to mp3.....then arcade....lol....saw this gal playin para para....she looked damn funny sia.....but she was damn good oso....well at this time there was onii me my frien n his frien....lol....his male frien wanted to try e para para....well i must admit he was good...haha....n looked good on it....haha.....yep he did....but i tink he was shy la...cuz halfway thru my frien pangseh him n run go toilet....haha....so well to at least trry to ease e awkwardness a bit i stood nxt to him watchin la....dunno whether help or not....ask him ltr....but at least i tried n things got better...haha....my frien called his 2 other friens 2 come....n god....e fashion sense on those 2 guys are lyk......haha....shall not comment....but that guy n me hitted of quite well....we stayed outside e arcade cuz my frien n his 2 damn beng frien were to busy at e time crisis ting....could chat qutie well.....lol....in e end e whole ting i tok more to him then my frien....such a charmin character....lol....then walked bac to e mrt together cuz my frien was goin to go clubbin n neither of us wanted to go.....at least i got his email friendster n hp number.....haha.....thats all for now la....so bored....well ohayo gozaimas to e ppl readin my post now.....muacks!

johnathon

a sayin 4 e dae......a mirror nvr lies.....everythin else does....one must learn to not b to trustin....open ur eyes n look around....u can find someone better 4 u....always(dunno how both links but e second part is 4 u li wen jie!)

2006-08-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

Jessica Simpson - Public Affair

anyone wanna haf a public affair with me?....haha

2006-08-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

Rihanna S.O.S.

this is e other SOS vid of rihanna....not e sexy green dress...but equally sexy!!!

2006-08-10T19:02:00.000+08:00

well....rather bloody borin dae.....happy 20th blog to myself!!!!!......haha.....i mean post.....haha....to e fuckin person hu said i was emo.....get this down n note it u bloody numbskull.....i am emo.....n watcha goin to do bout it.....at least im in touch with my own emotions unlike u....actin cool n detached.....actin cool doesnt mean u are kool.....wake up....u are wat ppl refer as a poseur!!!......u are jus simply one hell of a fuckin pathetic.....thinkin u can get more ppl by shuttin up.....if u can leave e rest of ur life being so detached from ur emotions i bow down to u la.....but u cant right????.....n even if u can it jus proves my point of wat a sad pathetic person u are......yea.....go on being cool.....i'd love to c how long u can last.....pathetic piece of crap.....hope one dae u drown in ur emotions n there is not a single frien to help u since u were lyk "we're not friends,dun assume".....u take ur heck care attitude n get to e other end of e universe.....i hope u nvr find a stead n b single 4 e rest of ur life......its not fair 4 others to suffer under ur fuckin huge ego.....anyone would die.....

now back to e civilised me.....haha.....well nothin much happen.....still testin out live messenger cuz so many funtions.....damn itunes still not workin....haha.....n Z*k* dun 4get saturdae....haha....u say one hor....nvr force u.....dun pangseh me.....lol....if not u will feel my wrath.....*smilee*

2006-08-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

hihi.....back frm a rest of not bloggin 4 a very long time.....dunno y....tryin my best to overwhelm myself with things to do i guess....haha....sounds lyk im in depression....but nope.....haha....had eldds performance.....competition all over stations around Sentosa.....god that was fun...haha.....but eldds performance was kinda sucky....haha....was pretty sure i had my lines....but still 4got it somehow.....haha.....well yesterdae was forced by mum to go to skool with e "no-ont-month-allowance" threat....cant really b bothered to wear red to go to skool.....nvr was type to follow e masses.....haha...i went.....i saw....i sang.....i left.....haha....that was basically it.....rest of e time im kinda in screensaver mode.....haha...went to e arcade with my juniors.....was fun....haha....nxt went to haf lunch at soeul garden with all or rather most of my eldds buddies....lol.....was really funny la.....aftr that met my frien to go watch "click".....haha....my frien n i stopped over at e arcade 4 a few games first.....was kinda dumb la....my frien started continuin his game of initia d racin.....then this numbnuts person came n challenge him....lost once.....challenge again......lost twice......challenge again.....lost trice....change to his frien......lost four times.....change back to that guy....lost fifth time.....change to his other frien.....n finally.....my frien lost.....haha...u can imagine how freakin bored n tired i was jus standin ard....click was a nice show la....made me shed lyk 5 tear drops....haha.....then we went ard to look at gundam kits....(4 those hu are not gundam fans.....u might jus wan to stop readin n jus scroll down to e images.....)....walked around.....frien was explain diff between a MG kit n a HG kit....haha....saw my fave....AKATSUKI!!!!!!!!!.....god damn it....didnt haf enough money to buy it.....well ppl if u wan to get me a gift 4 no reason at all.....get me e gundam kit Akatsuki Shiranui.....its lyk so kool la.....wait 4 me....i'll come 4 u....haha....well enjoy e pics below....haha

e one on e right is me(e pic on top!!!!!not below!!!!)

2006-07-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

Darling....where are u?

Haiz....todae was a damn lousy dae....was tryin to reach YOU e whole dae.....everything was so dull without YOU....a frien had e same problems too....stead didnt contact her....upset dull n all....but in e end her stead's hp was jus spoiled....ur's e same scenerio?.....i really dunno....im waitin here till now hopin YOU can at least return a reply of wat happened.....was it yesterdae?....i guess it was counted OUR first real date....i tried my best to make it a special date....i really did....but YOU barely let me into YOUR life....i really wanna noe YOU better....sorry i kicked up a big fuss two daes ago....he clarified that he was YOUR kor already.....i apologise k dear.....im really sorry....i dunno wats wrong todae....but he said u might get suspended when YOU go bac to skool todae.....he said YOU told him last night....y cant YOU tell me?....im jus worried k...i dunno if i did something wrong yesterdae or YOU jus avoidin me todae...u said that u wan b stead but cannot interfere in each others life...i beg to differ....cuz.....(erm.....this is gettin mushy....ppl hu dun wan read pls stop)....u are already part of my life n part of me....i hope u can let me b e same....i noe u are not that quiet one....pls....can u open up a lil more with me....im yours....whether good or bad i'll b with u....i jus need u to b able to that can...share ur life with me...u can with ur friens....but mayb as ur kor says....u are shy....but i dun tink so....so no matter wat tings u hate or dislike bout me.....i'll work on it.....i'll wait till e dae u let me into ur life....until u can really accept me as ur stead....to me u are my all....n my one....now is already past 7pm....n im worrin my sanity away....pls darl....contact me when u can pls....no matter wat it is bout....

I tout is jtamie(french)........HONTONE!(JAP)

i highlighted all e YOU YOUR n OUR to show how many times i can tink of YOU in such a short time.....belief ME......im really sincere bout this.....cross my hart

2006-07-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

"miss you" lyrics

DJ play that music louder, onegai BOOM CLAP BOOM BOOM BOOM CLAP X2 * futari de iru no ni I miss you chikaku ni itemo Boy I miss you sukoshi dake baby (the cold crush lover is here) moshikashite maybe (the ryuusei's flowin this year) ki ga kawaru mae ni rock with you soshite kyou mo kono mama with you doko made (mou) sukoshi dake soshite asa made Uh Uh Uh in this atmosphere Don't know why this love gotta be muzukashii I'm the uchuu no Super lover BA-BARU na noni Don't know why this TAKAHASHI TAKU no beat Gotta be so fly with Ryouhei to melody... Now listen I don't know why kimi no kijun wa totemo high nanimo kamo so uptight are mo kore mo PUREZENTO saretemo Baby you don't know sore dake ja nai yo I don't know why sukima no nai mayoi no nai taido is that PURAIDO? cash or card kane de kaeru mono nan demo ataetemo she always says no I gave her this, I gave her that kagireru mono wa yume no you dakedo diamond rings are not forever name anything, uchuusen that blings just anything tsuki no hikari made mo so baby come close to me Ooh, baby can't you see wakatte hoshii this is my kimochi Ooh tell me, tell me cuz gendo nante nai suki na mono buy shite la la la la la la Ooh, you say that you miss me but call mo nai shi jaa doushite hoshii girl Ooh oshiete so I can do it right So tonight, you and I can just uh uh futari de iru no ni I miss you chikaku ni itemo Boy I miss you sukoshi dake baby (the cold crush lover is here) moshikashite maybe (the ryuusei's flowin this year) ki ga kawaru mae ni rock with you soshite kyou mo kono mama with you doko made (mou) sukoshi dake soshite asa made Uh Uh Uh in this atmosphere BOOM CLAP BOOM BOOM BOOM CLAP X2 One... Tokyo minute de miseru love I gotta lotta of it ma, dynamite bakuhatsu love kimi wa HOT! HOT! ...doushitara ii n deshou ka? cafe mocha HOT! HOT! ...daremo ga furimuite jealousy tokechimau ze ATSUATSU She killin me la la la... masumasu like Stevie, signed sealed DERIBARI- suki na koto do it baby, kuchibeni nutte can we majime ni futari de rock rock? If you don't mind Ooh I'll tell you what this is all about Your money ja kaenai mono dakara demo (Oh!) mitai mitai your hohoemi and hear your melody la la la la la la How can I can I tsutaereba ii? Just spend some time with me jikan ga nai so please moshi maji nara futari gotta be gotta be? loving and huggin and uh uh futari de iru no ni I miss you chikaku ni itemo Boy I miss you sukoshi dake baby (the cold crush lover is here) moshikashite maybe (the ryuusei's flowin this year) ki ga kawaru mae ni rock with you soshite kyou mo kono mama with you doko made (mou) sukoshi dake soshite asa made Uh Uh Uh in this atmosphere DJ play that music louder, onegai Ooh How You Like Me Now, 2013(ni-sen juusan)nen SUTAIRU, m-flo's lovin' us now La La kikoete kitara Come and get me No, cuz this ain't no joke, you deserve it all, and I'm treating you right girl! The way I'm livin' is 5 stars, sugoku large chou-mirai, kou go kitai Girl, you my type...what's your namae? tomaranai pull over! Throw ya, hands up in the air, kono ban Girl, nagareboshi mita you na feeelin de Uh sono hitomi ni hamatteta ze, itsunomanika because I'm bound to wreck your body and say turn the party out I'm bound to wreck your body and say turn the party out I'm bound to wreck your body and say turn the party out Tell me why doushite surechigatte iku no? (why don't we kiss no more) mou itsunomanika futari wa (so far apart, tell me) dou sureba ii no baby girl? (Uh, How you feelin me now?) We should be vibin' forever futari de iru no ni I miss you chikaku ni itemo Boy I miss you sukoshi dake baby (the cold crush lover is here) moshikashite maybe (the ryuusei's flowin this year) ki ga kawaru mae ni rock with you soshite kyou mo kono mama with you doko made (mou) sukoshi dake soshite asa made Uh Uh Uh in this atmosphere futari de iru no ni I miss you chikaku ni itemo Boy I miss you sukoshi dake baby (the cold crush lover is here) moshikashite maybe (the ryuusei's flowin this year) ki ga kawaru mae ni rock with you soshite kyou mo kono mama with you doko made (mou) sukoshi dake soshite asa made Uh Uh Uh in this atmosphere

2006-07-19T16:33:00.000+08:00

m-flo loves melody & ryohei yamamoto - miss you

love birds hear this!

2006-07-18T19:33:00.000+08:00

jus got scolded by stead todae....said somethin to me lyk....dun sa jiao or act cute with me n blah blah blah......well if u wan me to b mature.....i really hope u can take it....cuz i dun tink u ever saw that side of me yet.....got me thinkin.....lol....jus a short while.....y e hell did i put myself out there jus hopin to c a smile on ur face.....hmmm....mayb i am an idiot....haha.....well if you wan this nonsense to stop....jus make sure u lyk me when im on my serious mood....cuz i can already 4see u hatin it....jus wait k.....u will c wat i mean

2006-07-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

濱崎步--Startin

nice video!!!!

2006-07-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

hmmmm......alot happened recently....to me that is.....well e competition has ended....unfortunately we lost....but was expected la......dun wan go too much into it b4 all e fuck start comin out...lol...well i met a new stead.... a really sweet one.....one i tink i can really fall 4....haha.....i lyk it when YOU smile....lookin at it jus brightens my dae.....YOUR voice when YOU speaks.....which jus sounds so cute....e look YOU haf on YOUR face when YOU said yes....jus seems so vivid....dun leave me k....haha....i noe i abit naggy at times.....but jus dun mind k......lol....tot i couldnt meet YOU ystrdae when YOU pangsei our movie date....but YOU made it aftr my movie.....was happi to c u....haha....though u were tired n quiet i was still enjoyin every min of ur company....k.....haha.....dun leave me....haha....if not will b very sad....MUACK.....haha

2006-07-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

hey my oh so loyal readers.....haha.....which is lyk less than 5 i tink.....

well cant remember wat happen on e last few daes i didnt blog....havin selective amnesia.....well todae was not bad....haha....was caught in e rain this mornin....haha....most of u did too rite?

then my form teacher(hu is oso my cca teacher) asked me to go 4 ELDDS todae.....asked me to skip my UG.....so i asked her to write a letter so i can skip it....wat pissed me off so much is that i keep remindin her but she keep 4gettin....damn wat u noe.....fucked up la....tell her 5 times still nvr write.....in e end i jus went 4 ELDDS first cuz fridae got competition so must haf pirority ma....haha...not bad la todae....i managed to help out with e props n stand in 4 one of e actors....n i might b gettin e role...haha....cant tell good or bad ting.....but jus really wierd leh.....haha...though i described this to b a bad dae(or at least i triedXp)....but still feelin happy leh.....i oso dunno y.....haha....well im stoppin here todae....goin bac to wat i was doin....

buhbye...

johnathon

2006-07-09T11:51:00.000+08:00

hehe my favourite gundams.....nice??

2006-07-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

heyhey....how do u do my dear readers(though i tink its jus lyk 5 of u or mayb less)

well nothin much todae lo...

Went out to haf lunch with mum at pepper rice in taka....god i hate hate hate orchard....always so crowded...pepper rice was not bad la....4 ppl hu wanna eat jap food on a hot pan n has xtra money to pay 4 it....lol...went to my aunts hse lyk i always do....e every week usual....arrived at her hse at 5 but aunt's maid said was out....sia la....wait till i almost fall asleep sia....chatted a bit bout e arrangement of her furniture...okok....dun laugh....but i decided 2 learn how to make bead ornaments.....dun laugh la!!!....i mean....first of all....i can make personal gifts 4 my stead...lol....tag me k.....thats all i haf 4 todae...

2006-07-07T11:23:00.000+08:00

hehe....was kinda too busy to blog yesterdae....got scolded 4 skippin hell lot of my UG....ought to quit it....think i'll b better off jus havin ELDDS drama as my main core CCA....n right aftr that....e principal held out class back in e courtyard.....said something lyk"u wont b havin lessons 4 todae cuz ur class is filthy!....ur class will b used 4 e excel fest n i wont haf ur tables n walls lookin lyk this.....ur monitor is goin to get e cleanin equipment frm me n u are goin to spend e first 4 periods cleanin all e "f" words off ur tables n walls....."

still cant figure out if good ting or not....but was fun....haha....first 2 periods were history so basically my female teacher came in....lol....she started helpin us clean too....was so funny sia....she went to e staff rm n toke her cotton wool n nail polish remover n started pourin on everyones table....haha....was cleanin with gif....so e nail polish was kinda extra la...but she still continued on n used her cotton wool to help us clean....haha....ended up i tink everyone haf a fun time la....i hope they did at least....then nxt 2 periods was chem....again another female teacher....jus realized something....all my teachers except physics are all female teachers....she came in n basically....er....shouted orders....all she said was"i wan this"...."i wan that".....felt lyk takin e gif n shuttin her up....haha....principal came up 'while ltr n said our class was "relatively clean" but had to"fill up our notice board with updated stuff".....lol....so i suggested that we jus fotocopy our txt book 4 e diff subjects n jus pin it up.....stupid idea...haha

rest of e dae was nothin special.....went home then met mum 4 dinner....

now is fridae....slept in cuz of MOE excel fest(YES!!!!!)....haha....jus had breakfast....now goin to slack at home till nite time then meet stead.....^_^...

oh yea....good luck 4 ur attachment nxt week ZJ......startin on mondae rite?....gambate....^_^....sorry bout e arguement....haha....4giv n 4get eh...

2006-07-05T16:48:00.000+08:00

Figures that ppl when read my post yesterdae they tot i was upset.....well i wasnt!!

haha....in fact to me....i tot it was one of e daes when my head felt e lightest.....haha....was happy that i managed to get ting of my chest....well i suppose good daes dun last.....jus got a stupid call frm my dad...sayin my grandma is complainin that im mixin with e wrong crowds....not e first time havin such a lame conver....it went somethin lyk...."i didnt bring u up 4 nothin....so y cant u lead a normal life..."yada yada.....suppose u get e drift....gave him e watcha-goin-to-do-bout-it attitude....ya la....got to a huge arguement...then that cb threatened me that if i dun change he was goin to change me out of my skool....n im lyk...y dun u giv it ur best shot....cuz u noe u cant.....tink he got a shock i stood up to him.....cuz he loved to terrorize my childhood with lets c....iron.....bamboo.....cleaver....but he ought to haf a reality check that im no longer 7....im taller n stronger than that faggoty womanizer.....so bring it on damn cb.....haha

on a lighter note...eh....haha....sorry no lighter note...haha...now i guess i feel better....well goin to dance....ltr then my friens....haha

2006-07-04T19:02:00.000+08:00

hey to all my readers.......

well skipped one dae of bloggin.....tot of postin todae cuz got stuff to say......

yea....watched superman with my ex yesterdae.....biggest mistake i tink i ever made.....call me an idiot n all but but i will nvr go out with e person again....its lyk reality check lo.....i tink its was kinda in my face that e person jus wasnt that into me.....even to b friens.....i asked e person out.....we met in e morn watched superman......man....say sorry to fans of e show first(dun wack me ar).....tot its was a rather bad film....was kinda draggy...stretched on 4 lyk 2.5 hrs....e part i tink i lyk was when e kid saved his mum by pushin e piano n killed a guy(i mean c'mon.....superman didnt even kiss some1 n his son did).....but basically i tot its kinda dumb la.....how does his suit withstand all e atmospheric pressure n temp man....so damn lame la....yea.....film ended then when with my ex to e suntec arcade to play games.....was playin time crisis 4 to b exact...had a fun time la....the e dae ended....was walkin "the ex" bac to e mrt when "the ex" met skoolmates.....to save"the ex" e trouble of hu i am....i left first....

Aftr awhile "the ex" sms me sayin that he/she left.....i told "the ex" i left to spare explanation..."the ex" replied that it was ok cuz he/she jus said that i was a frien...u noe....when u brake up....sometimes its nice to noe that u can still b friens rite?.....to me its a yes....not sure wat u ppl tink....call me an idiot call me childish....but i hate bein backstabbed or ppl sayin something but does totally e opposite.....jus read "the ex" blog.....was kinda disappointed la.....some1 hu called u a frien....basically left u out of their whole dae....they toked bout e movie....that he/she played time crisis4 how difficult it was n all....but jus left out me when i was totally lyk nxt to "the ex" playin together....n "the ex" calls me a good frien of his....call me emo lyk some ppl i noe will(j_s_n _ha_)...but its sad to noe that ppl lyk this still are lyk that even though tt person actually shared something with u n said "i love u" can b so either ashamed or wat i dunno to even tell ppl u were e one out with him/her....

then i learned a sayin....its six really simple words.....they're jus not that into u....its sometimes dumb 4 me to say it now bit when u are in my shoes.....n c this frm my eyes.....i tink u will find out that this is a powerful statement lo....

johnathon signin out frm here now.....do tag me....haha

remember.....if u put urself out there 4 some1 but e person jus dun seem to respond.....jus remember this six words.....he/she's jus not that into u.....so move on.....if ppl ask u to change 4 e person.....DUN....NEVER.....cuz a relationship is a mutual ting....but if u are e only one givin in it....then i tink u will find this relationship will b very tirin 4 u.....so bless u all.....enjoy ur experiences in love n never giv up on relationships....cuz.....when u do....is when u really gave up n lost to it......smile always^_^

2006-07-02T10:52:00.000+08:00

HAHa.....lyk my newly rebuilt blog.....special thanks to my good frien kieran....thanks man....

i noe music dun really suit e blog's "i miss u" theme rite?

but i lurve this song leh....haha....cant stop dancin to it...wat can i do.....

todae....hmm....dunno wat to do leh.....goin dc at suntec to buy a bag ltr.....wanna join me?

haha....im such a lonely person....bleah....

ppl hu readin this......jio me out on mondae or fridae leh.....suppose to meet my ex dunno when....but that ex keep raincheck-in me.....so im quite dateless.....haha....ask me out soon?......

johnathon.....signin out......JIO ME!!!!!!.....haha

2006-06-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

lol.....make this real quick....cuz my fave show startin le.....

went to dentist todae to fix my braces or tighten it so to speak....then he put this stupid metal on e inside of my jaw....n expect me to b a good boy n tie a rubber band frm e inside to e top jaw.....n im lyk"WAT!!!!!!".....haha....n im suppose to leave it on 24/7.....haix....

well at least some good stuff came of todae.....got my frien to send me some songs i love....now cant stop dancin to them.....

yes i love dancin.....

no im not nuts.....

jus fyi....

ppl wanna dance with me jus jio lo......haha....wanna dance with ppl haha......

really got to end le.....haha...Charmed startin le!!!!!!

those hu noe how to help me set music in e blog can contact me....cuz im still a noob at this....pls....haha

must ar.....

Johnathon signin out n goin to dance.....muacks

2006-06-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

welcome all to a new lesson of a y-e-hell-am-i-listenin-to-this-crap moral lesson......

to begin with i would lyk to put across a scenario to u.....

say there was this person whom u admire....okok....envy.....n then he or she jus nvr seem to notice u no matter wat u do...but one dae they haf lets say....a performance....yea a performance....n they start gettin panicky.....so basically if u ppl are lyk idiots such as myself u will send a nice carin sms sayin that u will always support them n that though u cant make it but u will always support them 4 afar n all la...then that person will most probably reply....thanks man....really needed it....with these simple words frm such a person i tink it will simply lift ur dae to a new high.....but reality is such a cruel ting....it takes us on a bet.....if e person gets out of e performance with a success n a grin frm ear to ear.....there is a high chance he will 4get all bout u n jus go celebrate with his other friens....which trust me.....sucks to e core.....but if he comes out with a frown n failed.....u can go in n console him n there might......MIGHT....b a chance 4 u n e person to finally take notice of u....

sounds cheem eh.....haha....well im sure u haf been through something lyk this b4......haha....

n my advice is......wake up......take a breath....n tink deeply.....

wats e point of gettin upset or overjoyed because of some1?

i noe e point is ppl say this alot of times.....but how many can actually do it?....

4 me....basically.....i only managed to giv up carin jus.....

not giv up carin bout ppl or e tings ard us.....but instead....not carin how others tink bout us till it affects us to a large extent......

i cant say that wat ppl say wont affect me at all.....but as compared to e past i tink my life will b much easier when i learn how to relax n jus liv as life takes me.....cuz guess it'll b pointless if i get all down when some1 tells me:"y are u so dumb" rite?

haha

well johnathon siginin out here....leave a comment on wat u tink my moral lessons are lyk....:D

2006-06-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

hmm.....wat to say....haha....chao skool for e first 3 daes of e week.....not because i wan to ok....haha....cuz im coughin my head off!(dunno is reason or excuse)bleah....haha....feelin kinda bad now la....thorn between 2 ppl n i dunno how to chose lo....haiz...sometimes if can jus disappear 4 awhile i tink it'll b good....jus dun wan anyone to get hurt if i chose one over another la....so in e future if either one gets hurt....jus noe that im sorry ok...goin bac to skool tomoro....dun noe wat awaits me but i guess lets jus take it face front eh....well guess thats all im goin to stop at todae lo.....^_^

ps.....heard a song i tink is really nice on my friens blog.....blessed b ur name.....thats e title i tink....if u wanna hear click on e link "jon sng" @ e side bar k....haha....n if u readin this jonathan....send e song to me!!!!!!!!!

johnathon signin out

take tings slow, look around n n appreciate them cuz we nvr noe when they mayb gone......

2006-06-23T14:54:00.000+08:00

arghh.....im so freakin sick....went to c doc this mornin.....was so giddy but somehow i still made it downstairs....when i reached e clinic i saw that i was e only patient n was lyk hopin i could get this over n done with so i can get bac home....filled in e damn forms as fast as my hands allowed n i went into e rm as e receptionist instructed....i went in to find it empty n told e stupid receptionist.....she said something lyk..."he went out??....OMG....he must haf walked out so quietly..."so i sat n wait....when e doc came bac i got pissed.....he went to NTUC to buy corn flakes.....n it toke him lyk 15 min!!!!!.....then he said that wat i haf is quite common cuz of some volcano somewhere eruptin....i was lyk yea yea.....lets get this over with....n worst of all....i haf to eat plain congee with veg....no oil nor solid food.....i 4see myself hatin this doctor.....

jonathon signin out......

2006-06-22T14:15:00.000+08:00

OMG.....this is a new blog by me.....my torturous 3 daes of IAG advance has ended....i myself dun noe how we(groupmates n friens) survived e camp.....let me run thru e programme....

Day 1
set alarm at 6:30 but woke up at 7am.....rushed out of e damn hse n took a cab to e trainin hall at e keppel buildin there only to find out that e camp held there was SK!!!!! Then e coach there told me to rush to Furama hotel opposite chinatown point cuz its held there but when i arrived the staff told me its at Furama river front......had to grab another cab to get there n wats best is that i managed to make it there on time!!!we were then sitted at e training in rows on chairs....i was sittin all alone in e bac row n i tink coach Hafizah n Christy came over to tok to me cuz i looked kinda lonely....was thankful la.....haha....then we carried on with activities to noe one another better......lyk shakin hands n tokin to each other...we were then asked to chose our own groups....i kinda clicked with this one gal called Kriffith so i kinda jus jumped to her n we started findin others to join oso....had 7 ppl in my grp but then there were lyk some guys without a grp n e coaches insisted that we haf guys n gals in a grp thus we had to trade e gals away.....we were then asked to chose a coach we wan cuz we were goin to haf to haf to "bid" 4 them with number of push ups.....we won coach Kyrie n Hafizah with 2000 push ups....n then we had e worst part of e dae.....outdoor mental challenge one.....we went to e carpark n were made to do pushups cuz we were not coordinated enough n didnt had e essence of teamwork in us....we moved on to games....we played a game called "blast through" basically its to b able to make it thru lines of defence by other grps n reach e coach at e other end....my grp played with two other grps.....n thru this match i found 2 grt ppl in e camp.....one was jonathan sng n gerald....was really n honor to noe them cuz they kinda showed me wat it was lyk to work together.....i made it past e other lines of defence but was stuck at them cuz they worked together really well....we ended e games soon enough n was sent bac to e rms to change n freshen up together with lunch....i tink i made friens on e first dae but some of which i wanted to noe better but didnt went to tok to them.....guess i was feelin kinda wierd cuz it feels lyk u noe this person 4 a long time but by fact its only lyk 12 hours or something...

Dae 2
dae 2 was lyk a super killer.....we were brought to marina city park n to this open field....we started off with marchin so as to help with our coordination.....we waited 4 e other grps to arrive b4 we did warm ups.....warm ups sucked man....we couldnt do it in unison n were punished.....we stood in e middle of e field n then e trainer said that we had 10 sec to get to a tree.....n no one is to share......guys had to giv e closer trees to e gals n ran a futher distance.....i tink we continued on 4 lyk15 min but e trainer wasnt happy.....he said he would carry on ltr.....we were then made to jog round e park.....most ppl frm grp 1 to 5(im in grp 2) were lyk exhausted already lo cuz we arrived earlier n were asked to do xtra....but good la....take it as trainin stamina i guess....but i kinda stopped in e middle cuz was too tired.....then i saw a gal called jamie.....to me she was lyk a grt leader lo......cuz even though she looked lyk she needed to stop n looks close to feelin sick but she to carried on n even cheered others on.....another person was jonathan sng....he slowed his speed n even went to e back to help ppl hu were joggin slowly n cheered them on....to me....its not e big actions or promises which proves u to b a leader.....its e little tings lyk carin 4 others n helpin ppl ard u which makes u a good leader.....to me they are already leaders.....when we had finished e jog we were asked to report to e middle of e field n were asked to go into pushup position.....our trainer said we owed him 2000+ push ups n that we had to pay half bac.....we did grp by grp.....someting lyk a relay ting.....we held e damn position 4 lyk 20 min la.....now i dun tink i can really find one muscle which does not hurt....i had swingin log nxt.....its an activity where we had to walk across a piece of log suspended lyk 60 or 70cm of e ground....lookin frm a third person it looks easy.....but when u get on its really not easy.....we had to say our goals n our restrictin beliefs of ourselves b4 we go up....e ppl i admire in this activity were gerald n jie yin(i tink its spelt lyk this) cuz u can really c e determination in them.....when it was my turn i believed i could pass it.....but it was worst then i tot....e coach said something when made me remember something while i was on e log n it stayed there....i attempted to let it go.....but i jus couldnt.....n i tink it caused my downfall.....coach Hafizah brought me to one side n toked to me....i kinda poured it all out n jus let my emotions n jus cried....but i was happy that she was there to tok to me....cuz she made me reliaze some tings i nvr toke notice of n said some words that really touched me....when it was night time we watched a show titled "war to end wars" i tink.....its bout e POW hu built e death railway in thailand....we were then in an activity where we were given 5 straws n to giv it to ppl we tink in this rm hu deserved to live if only 5 were allowed to liv.....n if u dun noe their names u had to say:"i dun care enough bout u to noe ur name....U DIE".....alot of ppl broke down....b4 i set off jonathan was standin nxt to me n said that:"dun giv me a straw, giv it to ur teammates" but to me.....he was a grt leader.....so i gave it to him anyway...im not sure y i did it....but he jus shows me he can b a leader....i gave another to jamie(sorry i 4got ur name then) cuz she lead e grp that dae even though she was not elected....she toke e initiative n that proves enough that she is a leader.....nxt was welson frm my grp.....though he's only 13 he shows he has lots of potential n i hope he can carry on....then is wan ching(if i spelt wrongly sorry) cuz she did a grt job as camp coordinator on e first dae....last but by no means least is Kriffith(thats right miss hot model!!!:p)...if u are readin this i wan to say....ROCK ON!!!!!!haha....i enjoyed myself with u n quincy alot....either singing e songs or jus makin fun of each other....its jus a real honor to haf met both of u....i really mean it....sobsob....hope we keep in contact....im sorry Quincy 4 not givin u e straw cuz u didnt really shine.....im really sorry....when it was e end of e night i was jus happy that jonathan actually made it to b one of e survivors cuz he is a real leader.....:p

dae 3

i woke up feelin heavy.....not because of all e muscle ache(but it really hurt leh) but becuz it hit me that this is e last dae of e camp n that when todae ends i might nvr get to c this ppl hu went thru torture together as a team...dunno by wat....my hp rang....i received 2 msg....one frm jonathan sng n another frm jamie....dunno is it me or wat but i always a lil insecure one.....as in when i trade number with ppl....i'll haf a lil voice in my head sayin "they wont msg u one" or "they barely noe u.....dun overrate urself"....was e same 4 jon n jamie but when they msg me i jus felt lyk im actually there lo....i exsist....n i knew i had to get by this dae with a smile n make this enjoyable.....i toke lyk half n hour to hail a cab n was late....when i entered everyone was sitted n gettin ready to nominate a person frm their grp to b camp coordinator 4 e dae...e moment i sat down.....my teammates shouted my name n i was forced to go up to b one of e campaign-ers....i dunno how it went but i didnt won....gerald did....wasnt sad or disappointed though cuz i noe he could lead better then me...haha....we then grab our stuff n headed 4 marina city park once again....this time e other grps went first so my grp together with 4 other grps played games to entertain ourself while e coach headed bac to pick us up aftr sendin e grps there....was a funny sight to behold when e punishments were being carried out....haha...when we arrived we had a lil time to continue e swinging log frm yesterdae as some ppl lyk me had not completed it...ppl went up one by one includin me but i still couldnt pass e log...then while i was on e log again coach Hafizah told me again..."u write ur life....u can chose to b e typewriter hu writes e story or e ink hu lets other uses u n writese story....i gave it my best....i really did....but e barrier i haf jus cant seem to go away....gerald when on n everyone cheered 4 him....he made it past with difficulty but he did make it past...n 4 that i admire him....heck i admire ppl hu could make it past cuz it means they haf e focus they need n they can do it.....then our nxt game was 7 trials of glory...my grp was doin really fine in e beginning but then we were stuck at a challenge 4 a long time....n this showed me that teamwork was reaLLY really important....when we went bac to e hotel we freshened up n had lunch....our final game 4 this course is called e markettin game....basically we were given a trash bag with maskin tape, sissors, newspaper, magazine n 3 random items.....my grp had an xtra large underwear, air deodrant n toilet brush as our three random items...n wats worst.....our theme was TRANSPORT!!!!...WHICH SERIOUSLY SUCKED LA....but i had a grt time n fun with my grp to design a futuristic underwear n creatin a sort of short advertisement 4 it....lol....aftr havin our fun we got a lil serious...we were given our certs n a purple ribbon frm our coaches which says "who i am makes a difference"....i promised myself not to cry but i still did e moment coach hafizah tok to me.....she gave me one ribbon....then quincy gave me one...so did calvin n jin hong...i thank u frm e bottom of my heart 4 affirmin me....really was touched....when my emotions were jus bout to stabalize, Kyrie came to me n once again my tears jus came out...i was not ashamed 4 cryin cuz i learnt frm my coach durin IAG basic that when a guy cries over something lyk that its really nothin to b ashamed or called sissy cuz to keep ur own emotions inside is a horrible ting....i gave mine to jonathan....in case u didnt hear wat i said cuz i was lyk chokin....haha....u really are a grt frien n a real leader.....hope we can keep in contact.....wont wan to lose contact with u......n my other was to Kriffith.....cuz without u helpin me along as grp leader.....i dun tink i could haf handled it or haf such grt time especially with quincy too.....frm here.....i thanks all of u.....those hu noe me....or those hu jus glanced at me....i thank u frm e bottom of my hart....

trainers:

Gary

Amin

Danny

Melvin

Coaches:

Hafizah

(tks 4 guidin me)

Kyrie

(thanks)

Lydia:p

Roger:)

Woei tang:)

Max

(thanks 4 helpin my grp in e game)

Li Hui:)

YY:P

(grt army stories)

Eugene:)

Christy:p

Terance:)

Trina:)