Saturday, March 15, 2008, 11:41 AM
My first post on my new macbook. Wanted to blog bout it, but dun seem to be in the mood. Have some problems and this would probably be one of the only places where i can say what i want to.
I'm currently dating someone new and things aren't exactly going smoothly. Just had our third fight last night. Here's my question, when in a relationship is it alright to say ' i'm just being me' ? Does that mean that if two individual personalities dun hit it off, there is absolutely no chance of a relationship? If a relationship has 2 "Me"s in it, will there ever be space to make it a "We"? While people around me can simply say 'look around for more options' and 'things probably wont work out for u guys. Just break.' What are my options?
Robert Frost once wrote:
'Ah, when to the heart of man
Was it ever less than a treason
To go with the drift of things,
To yield with a grace to reason,
And bow and accept the end
Of a love or a season?'
This is only part of his poem 'Reluctance'. But by just this bit, what i get from it, it seems to say 'follow your heart'.
Perhaps one reason why i can't just end this, is simply the word 'reluctance'. Bout the best thing that happened to me thus far but i have no solutions to this problem. I dunno how i can move forward nor backwards. My ego makes it hard for me to let things go and simply smile it off and move forward. My reluctance prevents me from taking a step back from what i already have. When is it right for me to compromise my ideas? Similarly, stand up for them?
And while everyone has started off their Saturday routines, i'm sitting here with more questions than i have answers to. I wish i could just simply voice this out to my date, but im afraid to get into another fight. In which case, the old saying of ' settling ur problems together' doesn't quite go together does it? I wish things would simply just be simple and where i can share problems and talk things out with. Maybe it's me. I currently have no clue. I dunno if i should move forward or back.
[K]azuki