im single again...but this time...im not really that sad after all...something came about from it..

this relationship which just ended, was with my ideal and not with reality. The ideal boyfriend pop-ed into my life and swept me away...or so i thought. It was everything i imagined and it was perfect. and that was where the problem lies... it was everything i imagined.

He swept me off my feet like i imagined him to. He asked me out and toke romantic strides with me to keep me company. He even kissed like i thought he would. There was nothing fresh in it. Nothing for me to anticipate. Nothing for me to want nor feel bashful about. Everything felt like i have lived through it already and it felt much more like a dear old friend rather than a lover. I ended it on feburary 29th...a day that comes once every four years...by the time i go through this day again. I hope i will have sincerely found someone who is imperfect.

Im going to stop looking for perfection. If life throws me a curve ball...i see no point in avoiding anymore...i will move on with what i've got. Im not going to be afraid of commiting. Maybe people see it as dumb and putting myself on the chopping board but i see no point of me being coi anymore. The perfect ideal date no longer exist to me. I will take what i've got...memories and all...and move on...when the world gets dark and cold...this are what i will wrap myself in and push on...

tonight...i spent the most imperfect evening with the most imperfect gentleman... but to me..it was perfect... enough company...enough support and enough time for me to think things through. (this is the best reason for stayin in town) The walk back home from the grand cathay...i toke alone...by choice...but i didnt really feel alone... try this next time...dun allow ur date to send u home...go home by urself...and think bout what happened on that date...cuz all i could remember was the feeling of being touched and a broad boyish smile. And that was more than enough. After all...imperfection in an imperfect world...is perfection...what irony. haha... but im moving on...with someone willing to stand by me and help me along... someone i can truly see myself grow old with. Quoting from 'P.S. I Love You' : It is a privilige to grow old with someone u love...
I'll let things flow for now... I dun wanna rush into what a r/s should be...but rather can be...

To K. : Thanks for everythIng... slap me if u wish... scoLd me if u have tO...u leaVe me at a lost of words...i've never mEt someone like U...nor imagined with u in my life...thank you...

[K]azuki