"Ahhhh...having a mental breakdown soon...maybe 2008 really isnt so good a year for everyone." was the original starting for my blog post. Trapped in my position, many of you would have already given up helping friend after friend with their problem. Not being recognised but rather being called a 'kpo'.

Hmmm...whoever said that doing a good deed is always good. Currently 'shooting the middle-man' seems more appropriate. Having my chipmunk away from me, I'm just feeling so alone. Then again, arent we always? So to address certain issues, to the guy who feels so alone and that his friends are abandoning him. MATURE UP! No one has freaking gone anywhere. So what if we are lonely? You have people checking up on you and constantly helping u up. What have i got? A bf who is away? Friends who are so caught up in their lives that it is simply suffocating to me? You have emotional baggage. So do we. It makes us human. So take a step back and look around. Life can only be a swirling eddy of despair if you make it. Lonely...arent we all? We get by. No matter how many r/s we are in or friends we have, we are still alone. When we dream, bath, eat, walk down a dark road, we are alone. So why are we complaing and whining only now? Cuz Saint Valentine's Day is coming up? IT IS BUT ONE DAY! People who attempt suicide and didnt die should simply jus be locked away in a mental institute. How many people in the ICU want just a few more days jus to tie up their lives before they die. They are fighting to live. So why is it so easy to take ur own life? Just cuz things got a lil difficult. To summarise some points for that friend:

• Mature~ no one has left ur side. But some things people cant help u with. Lead ur own life. Dun keep expectin others to be there for u cuz we all have our lives to lead. We'll definitely be a friend as best we can.
• Optimistic~ sometimes i dunno y u act the way u are...When everyone is standin by u...y must u still act like everything is the end. IT'S NOT! Please be optimistic from the bottom of ur heart and dun jus fake a smile...help us help u...

To my friend in the other social circle...wisen up and stop acting like a bloody spoilt child and shooting everyone in plain sight when u get angry. You have a little popularity thing going on but that doesnt exactly mean u use it to ur upmost advantage right? Every little thing u are pissed at, u type it on ur msn nick and flash it to the whole world...waitin 4 ur 'fans' to help u get ur revenge. Stop fucking being a queen! When u have more qualifications apart from just being able to think like a kid then be a queen! U are approachin 20...live like ur age eh...gettin into bitch fights every now and then...promiscuity is common! Especially among teenagers these days! So y act so shocked? They are who they want to be...u have no right to judge them. Actually to add to my point...to all stupid teenagers who enjoy clubbing oh so much and gained just that little popularity and actin all so Fabulous....grow up. Clubbing is a big part of the gay community but it isnt the only thing eh lil queeny...was really nice to u that night when i was tryin to help. Fucking bitch me one more time, i will show u what real queen is eh...u dun have enough qualification to be one yet... tsk!

hmmmm...was hoping bloggin will help me release some baggage...but dun think it did that much...meeting my bf later...jus wanna stay in his arms...now for me...if i want to be there for more friends...i have to be there for myself first...or im jus going to have a melt down soon...

happy 'ren ri' everyone...stay happy and be optimistic...

[K]azuki out

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